SpunkedTeen
You are NOT alone. I felt the same way when I first left. When you read some of the posts on here it makes you realize that it's NOT you. Others have been treated as bad as you have. The love from the JW's is conditional (you do the JW tasks and we will love you). You have to do what is best for you.
My mate and I are both born ins and have been fading for the past 3 years.
How do you think your Mom would handle the news? Do you still live at home and financially rely on her? You name sounds like you are young.
Keep reading, learning and most importantly thinking.