Tony Stark
Welcome. It is sad that you have lost friends and family. I hate the DF'ing policy. It's one of the many many reasons my family left the JW organization. They try and tell you its loving but that is BS.
Keep reading here, you will learn so much.
You are son young. You have your whole life in front of you. Make new friends and move on with your wonderful life.
There are some really kind people on this site and a lot of different experiences.