Resi
Your post is sad and I am sorry you have been hurt.
These people are conditional, they are not your friends. Friends do NOT treat you this way. Friendships in the JW organization are based off of JW tasks. If you perform their tasks, i.e. field service, meeting attendance, going to assemblies, pioneering and reaching out for positions (if you're a male). If you perform these tasks, then they will more than likely accept you into their little world. Let me repeat....that is not friendship. Move on with your life.
There is a great quote I think of often:
“I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”
― Robin Williams