we were right down with the very lowest.. father never a jw we had a po with little mans syndrome and love to pick on sisters that had no husband to stand up for them,he picked on my mother only to find out he picked on the wrong person,she came from a hard up bringing and didn't take any s###t from anyone particularly this little bully and we were very poor...how low can you get!.
karter..
My spouse never reached out for any position and I never pioneered so we were pretty much the sludge at the bottom of the pond. BUT we thought (key work here is thought) we were in Jehovahs organization, right? WRONG! It's all about WHO you are and if you do all the tasks than they can label you a "spiritual person."
This cult is nothing more than a corporation and social club. We choose to no longer participate and have NEVER been happier!
i was raised as a witness and am very thankful that i am out.
having said that, i think my upbringing produced positive qualities in me.
do you believe that anything positive came from your being a witness?
I would not have met my spouse and had 2 great kids together. Only thing I can think of.
My story growing up in this cult has made me a not very trusting person. I can make friends but I always expect people to let me down. I am working on that one.
i talked to my dad today, after i text him when i was angry after a night out.
i'm starting to get closure on my parents relationship with regards to me.the dynamic between them versus me is abusive.
my dad didn't think i had any reason to be bitter.he said i chose to leave "jehovahs people" and this is what i should expect as treatment.
Magotan
I think a lot of the older ones are scared and frustrated. Their paradise has not showed up. They are starting to realize they are going to die.Sad
okay, i'm about to engage in a major word vomit.
just giving you fair warning as your time may be better spent somewhere else.. so, i'm sitting on my lunch break, bawling my eyes out, and writing on this forum to people i don't know yet probably have a great deal in common with but at the same time, used to scare the daylights out of me.
for years, i would come across this forum and 'lurk' awhile if you will, or see things on youtube.
Stephanie
So glad to have read your well written post. You are on a journey and a tough one at that. We have all been through it and it is a long road. It does get better. The loss of family is something NO ONE should have to experience.
It is good you are getting therapy. We all understand what you are feeling. Take time to process everything and it will get better. Take one day at a time.
Hugs to you.
just in case someone wanted this letter for their records.
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.. petra!.
We have starving people in the world and WT is worried about clapping? Laughable!
observing our local unemployed pioneers and how long they take to get to their first or next call, usually taking the longest route to get to one they know won't be there anyway.
along the way it's gossipy this and that.
pioneers?
do you ever test the water and see if your relatives or friends still feel the same way?
i don't have mobile phone numbers or email addresses for my family because we left a long time ago.
long before facebook.
as a young witness married couple in the 1990's we knew "this generation" of 1914 did not have long to go!
oh how cute a young pioneer couple we were.
we wont have kids till "afew more years pass" and we are in the new system.
"WONDER HOW MANY THOUSANDS OF POOR BROTHERS ARE IN THIS POSITION! I"
I am thinking a lot of people are in your boat. Damn cult! I never listened to them (I was a weak one). We had 2 great kids. Wouldn't change a single decision.
Good luck (I'll go to hell for that one)! I wish you all the best with the IVF. Keep us posted!
I think there are also a lot who are struggling financially as well. Those ones who pioneered back in the day because the end is just around the corner. We have several in our own family scrapping by and working hard in their old age. Thank you Watchtower!
do you ever test the water and see if your relatives or friends still feel the same way?
i don't have mobile phone numbers or email addresses for my family because we left a long time ago.
long before facebook.
Morris is the brother who's pet project is Caleb and Sophia, that is why the wifey is wearing the pin.
Another shamless PR plug for the GB/Org.
