smiddy
When we first started our fade, we had a few try to contact us. Don't get me wrong. I appreciated the ones who did it. The problem that I had was, these ones who were trying to "encourage us" were not there for us when we were still in. I don't want to give too many details away but we went through a stressful financial time, due to a lay off. Not even a bit of concern from the BOE. We weren't asking from money, just a bit of true encouragement during a stressful time. I was over it and decided to leave. I wish that I could tell my whole story but I can't right now.
Don't get me wrong, I am the type of person who feels, you can't leave and want "friends" to stay away and then b*tch when they come around.
The issue that I have is, why weren't these ones around when we needed them? Imagine you have a child whom you never show any affection to, never told them you love them. One day, the child now 18 years old, has his bags packed and is moving out. I say, why are you moving out? The child replies, you have never shown me any affection or concern. All of a sudden, after 18 years, I tell my child, I love you. My question....why didn't I show love when I had the opportunity?
WT has taught me to be contradictory, I guess. They developed a brochure entitled, Come back to Jehovah and then had an entire assembly on shunning inactive ones. Which one is it? I guess my 40 something years in this religion has really scarred me. I am working on a lot of things right now.
As many on this have experienced, my story goes way back. We suffered many years with, "something is just not right here." NOW, we don't feel this way anymore. We NOW know what the "something" is...TTATT.
I hope my explanation here helps. I guess we all struggle a bit. We are moving forward and looking to the future, not living in the past. This forum helps me feel, not so all alone in my struggles.
We get one shot at a happy life. I am enjoying it....one day at a time.
Have an awesome weekend smiddy!
