@ Jordan.... - welcome to the board. It's not easy integrating into society from being chained, like you mention, to what seems an invisible wall.
Try joining hobby clubs, volunteering, and reading your Bible for inner peace.
Although you will come across people on this forum who have lost all faith and no longer believe in God, everyone has good intentions and good hearts. They are sincere in their personal assessments on how they feel. You may come across some who can become argumentative if you engage them in conversation going against what THEY believe, however, you will find that it's NOTHING, let me repeat, NOTHING, like you will find in a Khall. As you may have already experienced, brothers will basically step on you, gossip about you, bully you, back stab you, and kiss more rear-end than you, in order to look more righteous than you. You have nothing to worry about that here.
Here you'll find sincere people and TRUE friends. Not those 'insta' friends you get from Khalls until you disagree with their god the gb.