Hello BT,
I'm sorry to hear you have been DF'd from the Org.
Your feelings of despair have been experienced by thousands of members on this board.
Sadly, the Org cares more about it's image than of a member's feeling on being DF'd and the harm that stems from having to lose perhaps 90% of your social circle not including any relatives that may also turn their back on you.
Whatever it is you may or may not have done the bible is clear in regards to judging one another in John 12:47-50. Christ could not have been any clearer:
47 - "But if anyone hears my sayings and does not keep them, I do not judge him; for I came, not to judge the world, but to save the world. 48 - Whoever disregards me and does not receive my sayings has one to judge him. The word that I have spoken is what will judge him on the last day. 49 - For I have not spoken of my own initiative, but the Father who sent me has himself given me a commandment about what to say and what to speak. 50 - And I know that his commandment means everlasting life. So whatever I speak, I speak just as the Father has told me.”
Note the quotation from the NWT.