When I partook in 84, the elders were very uncomfortable since I was only 30 years old. One elder told me privatley that I was no more annoited than any man I saw walking down the street. My wife's response was, "Now everyone will think you are weird". The next year I had my own private memorial down an old dirt road with a wine cooler and a cracker before I took my family to the Kingdom Hall. I became depressed later that year and yearned for close intimacy with my Heavenly Father. One Sunday after the meeting I came home and closed myself up in my room and cried out to the "Great Physician" for help. I did not know what I needed but I knew he is the examiner of the heart and I was beginning to doubt that he had called me to Heavenly Life and I was beginning to become depressed. I did not know how but I asked him to please confirm his choosing of me. I reminded him of his word found in Hebrews 11:6 "For he who comes to GOD must BELIEVE that he exist and BELIEVE that he becomes the REWARDER of those earnestly seeking him. I fully BELIEVED that my Heavenly Father would answere my prayer, I didn't know how or when, I just BELIEVED.I then got up off my knee's and went into my living room and turned on the TV. Ripley's BELIEVE it or NOT! was just coming on. For the first time actor Jack Palance was introducing a new Co-Host....Marie Osmond.
The moment I saw her I BELIEVED Jehovah was giving her to me as a confirmational gift of his tenderhearted merciful love for me. I BELIEVE he gave her to me back then and SUPERNATURALLY SEALED our relationship by the power of his Divine Love contingent upon my faith.
I have kept and am still keeping my faith and BELIEVE I will be holding Marie in my arms soon. Nothing is impossible with our GOD!
Love,
James