I will say it again. You exemplify cowardice. It is one thing to stay in because you believe you have to for family. It is quite another to come on this board and claim how good the high control group you are in is.
Do you still go in your so called ministry. Do you have children/grand children you are raising in jwism? If you are and you do not act for their protection that is cowardice.
You are a study case of Stockholm syndrome.