I've always wondered why those who profess to love their neighbor, are so quick to judge and leave out in the cold those who don't think exactly like them. I remember that as a child(age 5), thinking, how can they be so sure they are the "ones" chosen by God if they tell us not to trust man, but aren't they being led by a group of men, how can they be so sure they are being led down the right path? Of course when I brought this up, I was quickly told not to think that way, and just leave things in God's hands,study your WT, go out in service, comment every meeting, and you'll be fine.
Its gotten to the point where I cannot be a hypocrite anymore, I can't go out and talk to others about something I don't have confidence in,( not God's kingdom-I believe in that), but this religion. Why would I want to bring an innocent into a place where ppl are quick to judge you for what you wear, how much money you make, and how many hours you put in on f/s, and whether u married a bethelite or elder?
The pills don't seem to work anymore, therapy is helping some, much to the chagrin of my spouse(jw elder), he's afraid i'm gonna put the "organiz." in a bad light..or even worse...him..as I alluded to..this marriage is messed up. This org., is all I've known, I was born into it, all my friends, family, are here, if I leave, I am on my own..and that scares me a bit.
Thanks..needed to vent a little..