I've struggled with being attracted to men and still do sometimes.
Of course you do, you can't change your attraction.
I think it's really the reward of everlasting life and the possibility of "being cured" of homosexuality in the future paradise that can attract a gay man to the Witnesses teachings. Having a normal life, family, kids, being a daddy, having a future like the majority around us.
You don't need to be cured, you are fine just the way you are. You can live a normal life, you can have a family/kids and be a daddy. Guess what gay people have futures too.
I was more bi than gay to be correct. The gay thing wasn't me though. I found it to be a depressing and lonely experience devoid of anything close to spirituality I had while I was a practising Christian JW. Maybe I was wrong , I don't know. Time will tell whether I was right or wrong to abandon it.
Of course you were depressed! You keep telling yourself you can't have a normal life and that you need to be cured. You will never be happy unless you accept who you are without guilt, shame or fear.
Joseph Nicolosi's book "Reparative Therapy of Male Homosexuality" helped me sort out some of this sex confusion I had.
Load of crap. Just be who you are, no book is going to change that.