I think I understand what propolog is saying. Many different feelings come over people and there seems to be no logical way of understanding some of them. The feelings you describe Ross, may seem real to you as coming from Jesus/ God but when one compares it to other feelings experienced by people of the same nature they would certainly not be coming from God such as the heartfelt desire to cut ones penis off and make it into a vagina but the urge to do may seem real. HS made some very good points as to praticers of Voodoo. ;)
I am interested in reading more of your experiences in the hopes of learning more. Ross, I have a Roman Catholic friend who I believe has simliar experiences to yours but some of the things she says has me wondering how they could come from God. I certainly mean no disrespect and I hope you will you take none. I certainly envy you in many respects. I too prayed fervently after leaving the JW's really feeling for some time that God had led me out of the JW's. Nothing ever came of it tho.
Tor