Bohemian

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  Are You Still Torn, Wondering Whether You Made The Right Decision To Leave?

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  are you 100% sure you're doing the right thing??

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  Bohemian

  Sunnygal, Minimus, Seeitall -- Thank you so much for the warm welcome. It's good to know I'm among friends.
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  Are You Still Torn, Wondering Whether You Made The Right Decision To Leave?

  by minimus in

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  are you 100% sure you're doing the right thing??

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  Bohemian

  This is my first post since, finally, signing up as a member. I perused the site while I was still in considerable confusion and trying to decide what to do. My reply to the question has to be yes, I am still torn. But only because my son is still very deeply enmeshed in the organization and is married into a family of Jehovah's Witnesses. He has cut off all contact with me and has assured me that if and when he has children I will not be allowed to see them or be a part of their lives. That's actually more like having your heart torn out rather than just being "torn". During the past few years I have been through more emotional and physical turmoil than I could possibly go into here, but it culminated in a very serious, and nearly successful suicide attempt. I'm sure you can imagine the reaction of the elders and the congregation as a whole when my daughter-in-law informed them all of that. That was almost a year and a half ago. During the past few months I have spent considerable time in personal study using multiple translations of the Bible and comparing the scriptures to The New World Translation of JWs. That, along with lengthy Bible discussions with a couple of neighbors and information gathered from sites like this one, has convinced me that leaving a judgmental, pharisaic, self-serving, sanctimonious organization could only be a major life improvement. By doing so I have lost the only friends I have and my son. I am still trying to discover where I belong and where I should be going to worship. I feel a deep emptiness at having no place to meet with like-minded people to worship God, but I'm still searching, asking questions, and holding fast to the hope that I will find that place. So (after much rambling) my ultimate answer is an oxymoronic, "Yes I know I made the right decision and yes I am still torn."

  And by the way, hello to all.