You know how ghosts are often portrayed in films etc. as those who are unable to move on, spirits that linger in the world they were once a part of, possibly because they have some unfinished business with the world they left behind.
Well to me that is how I view my life - I'm aware of the fact that I think way too much about my previous life as a JW. Its like I'm destined to walk through my past over and over, trying to come to terms with what I once believed, hoping to reconcile it with what I now see as reality.
How do you break from this? - This board has certainly been helpful for part of my readjustment towards normality. But what next? I certainly don't want to wallow in self pity and spend the rest of my life being an ex-jw.
Peppermint
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I think I'm a Ghost
by Peppermint inyou know how ghosts are often portrayed in films etc.
as those who are unable to move on, spirits that linger in the world they were once a part of, possibly because they have some unfinished business with the world they left behind.
well to me that is how i view my life - i'm aware of the fact that i think way too much about my previous life as a jw.
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Anybody ever read any really thick books?
by JimmyPage inanybody ever read any really thick books?
(i mean besides the one with the talking snake and the dragon that got hurled down to the sea).
books like "anna karenina" or "the brothers karamazov"?
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"Yeah, Peppermint, I have all of Alan Moore's Swamp Thing graphic novels. Great stuff."
Excellent JimmyPage. He actually lives in my town but I have never seen him about (and you would hardly miss him) -
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Anybody ever read any really thick books?
by JimmyPage inanybody ever read any really thick books?
(i mean besides the one with the talking snake and the dragon that got hurled down to the sea).
books like "anna karenina" or "the brothers karamazov"?
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The new Katie Price auto-biography is quite a thick book.
No, seriously the thickest book I have read is Crime and Punishment by Dostoevsky. I can read large non fiction books without any problems but I do struggle to keep interest with fiction...give me a Graphic novel by Neil Gaiman or Alan Moore and I'll be much happier. -
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9-11 Attacks
by Tired of the Hypocrisy ini think that the terrorists would have done better to fly those planes into wt branch offices.
there would be no need for the usa to go to war in iraq or afghanistan and they would have been hailed as heroes fo helping knock down an evil tower that casts a giant shadow of oppression, shame and fear.
maybe if any of the "goobering buddy" (ha i love that term) had survived the attacks they might have gone and molested osama and his little fruity indonesian pantyboys!
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The organization has caused us individually some measure of damage, but to wish them all a violent death is not a healthy reaction.
In fact it is the same reasoning radical Muslim groups might use against their targets.
"they would have been hailed as heroes fo helping knock down an evil tower that casts a giant shadow of oppression, shame and fear"
The Watchtower is just your own Great Satan and you sound as silly as they do. Better to lose the anger and work towards destroying these systems intellectually. -
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I have a 2 GB file I would like to share with yall
by middleman ini know this is a big file but i've spent many months (close to eight, i was on disability during this time-nuthin but time on da hands) compiling information, writing essays, finding pdf books/scans, taking notes on books, and finding great ex-jw websites that are very helpful.
i admit some writings of what i have in the file are not yet completed (due to a.d.d.
and the wealth of info i have got at jwd hahaha) but i feel i have some really great stuff.
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Thanks Middleman,
Thats very kind of you, Like yourself I'm not sure on the best way to send a file but I'm sure there are many who could advise. -
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I think I just need to tell the story to someone who will get it?
by aimless inhi everyone, im new.
i've been feeling a burden on myself for the years that i have been out and i just don't know how to ease it.
i can't talk about the organization or the people in it to anyone... if i try i immediately feel sick and want to close up and just disappear.
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Welcome Aimless,
"I feel really aimless in life now............i have very small aspirations that feel unreachable.........I have trouble defining what i want in life now still and it been 3 years............ I feel a total lack of ambition..........i dont even play video games as much as i used to because i find myself "too tired" to even do that... -aimless"
I know how you feel, this has also been my reaction to leaving the witnesses. Its as if woven in that particular set of hopes and aspirations that the jw's offer is part of your own being. When you leave, be it by design or force its almost impossible to reclaim all thats yours. You just have to make your own life now and it seems that is what you are doing, so hold in there because it will get easier with time.
"I would describe myself as feeling ashamed and embarassed when it comes to my time as jehovah's witnesses"
I think its a good thing to recognize the role we played in becoming a witness, its a mistake only to see ourselves as victims. There is a lot I have learned about myself because of my JW experiance so its not all bad ,most people if not all fall for some irrational ideology in their time so its nothing to be too embarrassed about.
Anyway, wishing you all the best and hope you stick around because this is a great place for recovery.
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Please I need your help! evil site
by Dogpatch inevil for some at least!.
now that i shamelessly hijacked your attention folks, i could, pretty please use some suggestions.. a dear friend, who is a website designer recently volunteered to redesign my sites.
he succeeded in creating a great design, especially for www.freeminds.org .
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"I am happy with the color scheme on the layout and so forth"
I like the color scheme too although I would say there seems to be 3 shades of green, personally I would say better with just one or two, but what do I know. -
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1919 A Tree Planted by the Rivers of Water!--PDF (John Edgar)
by Atlantis in1919 a tree planted by the rivers of water--pdf!
b=bookmarked s=searchable r=reduced from 12-mb to 3.8-mb john edgar click the download link by the red arrow at the bottom of the next page.
http://www.sendspace.com/file/kq67iw cheers!
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Thank you. Another one for the library.
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The United Nations warned yesterday that....
by Alpaca inthe united nations warned yesterday that it no longer has enough money to keep global malnutrition at bay..... http://www.guardian.co.uk/environment/2008/feb/26/food.unitednations.
this is a changed world.
we are living in very historic times.
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There is a little part of me that longs for such Anarchy. I blame A childhood listening to the sex pistols, Crass and the clash, then falling for an apocalypse hungry religion.
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I am sorry that I knocked...
by drew sagan indon't know if anybody else has caught this yet but there is a very interesting phenomena going on youtube where former jws are posting videos titled "i am sorry that i knocked".
i'm considering doing one and i would encourage any of you out there that can should post one up there too.
from what i have found on youtube six people have done this so far.
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Peppermint
I often think that apostates have been well trained by the society. It is not so strange that ex-jw's are more vocal in getting their message across compared to people who leave other organizations. It it not as the society would say because we are now under the influence of Satan and his hordes and are hell bent on attacking the one true religion but simply because our whole focus when we were witnesses, was to advertise, advertise, advertise. We are just putting those skills to good use now.