Hello all,
I really don't have a story to share what it was like to be woman in the WTS. I was out long before I became an adult. However, reading the preceding experiences helps me to understand a bit better somethings I have noticed in my own upbringing, and even here on JW.com
My Grandmother (Father's Mother) was a very dominating woman. Not just opinionated, but downright opressive at times, especially when it came to my Dad. My Father's parents did study, but never joined. My father did, and as a teenager, was baptised. I think that one of the things that attracted him was the dominant, unquestioned authority, males held within the WTS. He married my Mom when she was still a child of 14 at the KH and proceeded to be a tyrant of a husband, and later, father.
I realize that there are many oppressive, controlling males are were never JWs. Yet, being on this board and reading other information, I realize how much the WTS sanctions and promotes this appalling behavior in it's male members. Any opinions and outspokeness from it's female members is quickly quashed. This sounds alot like my growing up experience. My Father tolerated NO opinions contrary to his in our house. He also demeaned my sister and I if we did get the courage to speak up. My sister tells me of the time when my Dad
called her a "dumb broad" as a kid for some silly error she made.
I could go on and on, but I realize that I am off topic already
I have also noticed that the males on the board almost never post of having to fight depression while in the Org. It is nearly, if not always, the females. I wonder if it is not the most opinionated, and perhaps, intelligent, that suffer the most? We woman tend to internalize our anger and frustration, so I suppose I should not be suprised by my observation. It's also not suprising that the depression lifts upon leaving.
Reading this has also helped me to understand myself a bit more. Both my sister and I struggled with depression. Neither one of us really came into our own until we were in our 30's. For most of our 20's we sputtered along attempting to come to grips with our oppressive and traumatic upbringing, which was influenced by the WTS doctrine.
Now that I have turned 40, I think I have finally defined who I am. Freespirited, outspoken, opinionated, openminded, and blessed a wicked sense of humor.
Thank you all for sharing.
Andee