This drives me crazy. I woke up with "I want to" in my head this morning... havent been to a meeting lately, so what gives? Does this ever happen to any one else? I just turned on Sarah MacLaghlan and sang all the way to work, so it's gone now, but I can't stand it when this happens, for no apparent reason.
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Do you ever have a kingdom melody in your head?
by itsallgoodnow inthis drives me crazy.
i woke up with "i want to" in my head this morning... havent been to a meeting lately, so what gives?
does this ever happen to any one else?
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I TOLD AN ELDERS WIFE OFF YESTERDAY!
by Mary injust to give you a bit of background: i was diagnosed with uterine cancer a couple of years ago and had to have a hysterectomy.
naturally i got more support from all my worldly friends and co-workers than what i did from people at the hall, but am used to that by now.
anyway, a few days ago, someone from the hall told me that sister x (one of the elders wives who is a nosey, back-stabbing bitch) had been saying things about me like "she shouldn't have had a hysterectomy because that's showing disrespect for the reproductive organs that jehovah gave us" and that i apparently was "lacking in faith" by not "leaving it in jehovah's hand" and didn't i read that article in the botchtower or asleep!
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You go girl! I never regretted telling anybody at the KH off, no matter how ungraceful I did it. They all deserve a nice kick in the ass once in a while.
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Movies you are ashamed to admit you HATED!
by gilwarrior infor me i am ashamed to admit that i hated "black hawk down.".
everybody told me that is was this great millitary movie.
i know that it was based on real life, but i was so bored i actually walked out of the movie and i don't do it that often.. also i hated "gladiator.".
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Anything with Julia Roberts, Tom Cruise, Tom Hanks (sorry, that's just how it is), Leo DiCaprio. And I'm beginning to think I also hate movies with Nicole Kidman. All hype.
I saw The Hours recently, not so great. Another one I'm not too crazy about is Lost in Translation -too hyped, also.
And I thought I was easy to please!
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SNOW!!!!!!!!! in North Texas
by arrowstar ini know..i know...y'all are probably sick to death of snow those of you who get real snow.
but, here in north texas, we seldom get "real" snow.
we typically get what they call a "wintery mix" (snow, sleet and freezing rain).
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not a speck of it here in Houston, but it's been raining. I was thinking about driving up to Austin later, is it going to be snowy all day? I'm not going to try if that's the case. We don't know how to drive in snow in Texas and besides, there's no salt for the roads here.
Have fun in it and be carefull!!!
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"They're out to get me!"
by Nan inis it my imagination, or do jehovah witnesses have an "everyone is against me" attitude??
our daughter-in-law (who is a jw) seems to have this mind-set.
whether its getting the car repaired, going to the doctor, work done on the house, etc., they all have "ripped her off".
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I had always felt persecuted, but always thought it was more of an inside job - the JWs persecuted me more than anything or anyone else!
re: the post above about the living in a free country - that totally makes sense to me now. It's funny how they invent interpretations to fit and at first you don't question it, but then a you read a post like that and you see it so clearly! That's why I just love this forum...
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Can you keep a secret?
by doodle-v inare you a good keeper of secrets are are you a blabbermouth?.
has someone ever told you "you have to promise not to tell a soul!!
did you promise?
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Yeah, I suck at keeping secrets. But at least I'm honest about it...
I'm getting better about it though. Now that I'm old and jaded.
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How long did it take you to stop being afraid of the demons?
by doodle-v inwe all know that the wts continous to spew nonsense about "satan and his hordes" and how they are always on the prowl trying to attack loyal dubs and stear them away from the troof.
my parents are hard core dub zealots still very much in the org.my mom will not hesitate to toss an inanimate object in the garbage if she suspects that it is "possesed".
so when you left, how long did it take you to shake the fear of them big bad deeeemunz?
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I stopped believing what JWs teach about demons when I started watching "Charmed" and nothing bad happened to me. Before that, I remember having seen The Sixth Sense and was too afraid to bring the movie stub home with me... how stupid is that? It just makes me laugh now. Family still in the JWs are always saying this or that's "demonic" and I just laugh and remember how gullible I used to be.
I figure they probably don't exist, or at least not in the way that JWs think. I haven't really decided about all that supernatural stuff, it's probably all a silly hoax anyway.
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my first post
by new light inwell, after lurking here for about 3 weeks, i finally registered and decided to "join the club.
" reading your posts has really been a great help in continuing on the path i know to be right.
a little history if you'll bear with me.... born and raised a jw....baptized at 13, df'ed at 16. i've been reinstated for two years.
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Welcome New Light. You'll find a lot of supporting friends here. I'm a new here, too and so far have learned so much from reading posts, and it makes me feel like I'm not alone in this. I felt more alone in the KH when I believed everything and was doing all I could to please them.
I liked how you mentioned the "new found love of humanity". I noticed that too recently. JWs see people as either all bad or all good and it's hard to shake that thinking, but once you do it's like a huge weight is lifted off of you. When almost everyone is evil to them - in my family even JWs "in good standing" rarely measured up - it's like a dark cloud is hanging over them all the time. I'm glad we aren't affected by that BS anymore!
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My life ... and how JWD came to be - Part 1
by Simon ina few people have asked how jwd came about and what my own story is and while i've posted it in bits and bobs, i've never tried to tell it as a story so here goes .... living in suburbia.
i was born a jw to jw parents who had recently been missionaries / pioneers in ireland and taken literature into countries like spain when it was banned but who were now living in suburbia near to where they had both been brought up.
we lived in a new semi-detached house in a cul-de-sac at the bottom of a hill - fantastic for building go-carts and racing down !
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Thanks for this site, Simon. I can relate to your story.
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hello everyone
by itsallgoodnow inmy first post here - - wanted to give my story, too.
raised a jw, stayed in out of fear, painted myself into a corner and currently struggling to get out completely.
i know lots of people would say they don't respect someone who knows they don't want to stay but is staying for other reasons, like family & friends or whatever.
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My first post here - - wanted to give my story, too. Raised a JW, stayed in out of fear, painted myself into a corner and currently struggling to get out completely. I know lots of people would say they don't respect someone who knows they don't want to stay but is staying for other reasons, like family & friends or whatever. I can understand that, but for me, just having the freedom to think about whether WTS claims are true or not is a big step to take. Surprised by what I've already found out, and I've been forced to realize mistakes I've made because of not listening to my inner voice and spending my life trying to please everyone around me, which is how I painted myself into this corner in the first place!
Family is the real problem for me and I'm trying to sort out whether I want to say something about not believing anymore, or if I just want to slowly "fall away". Faking it through meetings has been real hard lately, and I can't keep doing it, so something has got to change. But I still want to do more research before I talk to anyone about what I don't agree with, because I want to be far away from that "fence" by that time so I don't fall for the fear and guilt trips again.
I don't feel guilty about anything now, which is a nice change and I'm finding out the scary stuff about the world was all lies.
Also, all the stuff I've read here on this forum has really helped, because I've haven't had anyone to talk to honestly about any of this, so thanks to all of you.