Kaytee......
Wow, you have really summed up how I feel about things. I've been thinking about it for a very long time and never could understand why I would be worthy of a home and a family while someone else is living in a box on the street. I'm no better than anyone and a God who can read my heart knows that. Once I came to the conclusion that he isn't actively involved in anyone's lives I actually had a sense of peace. To me that is so much better than a partial God. I am just glad to know that other people feel this way. I live in the deep south and definitely the bible belt where free thinking is ridiculed.
The only thing I still wonder a lot about is the existence of paranormal or unexplained things. While I don't really believe that there are demons messing with us I still know there are things that are unexplainable. I have to wonder where that fits in.
lol, on a side note....... everytime I try to type Deism I end up typing Desism.... lol, maybe I'm more worthy than I know... :) ha....