alamb...I am so glad that you can appreciate the world around you now. How sad to have stuffed all those emotions deep down inside for so long!!!
Even though I was raised a witness...I always had a mind of my own and I just never believed that all people were BAD!!! I had close friends at school and later I even had close adult friends that were not Witnesses. When I think back on it now, I guess I just did a really good job at keeping the 2 lives seperate. All my "worldly" friends knew that I was a Witness and they just didn't think twice about it. Some of the Witnesses knew that I had other friends, but they never really asked me about it. I don't know how I would have made it through school without my friends there!!!
I hope each and every day just gets better and better for you....
Swalker