Strangely enough -- I don't. I rarely ever think of them. Although when I went to the Memorial last year -- the music affected me the most. Strange. But I could probably still go to a meeting and sing a few songs without the book.
Posts by Purza
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25Do you ever find yourself singing old kingdom songs?
by MicStroz init's been over 12 years and every once in a while i .
catch myself sing kingdom songs.......only religious.
songs i've ever knew.
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Movies and TV Shows You Didn't Watch Because You Were A JW
by minimus inthis week i mentioned how i never saw the movie "ghost" because it was considered "demonistic".
i also volunteered that that i could not watch "bewitched", although "i dream of jeannie" was a conscience matter......any thing you didn't watch because you were a witness?
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Purza
My parents never let me watch Miami Vice. I used to think Don Johnson was so hot. So when I moved out and lived on my own, I watched all the reruns of MV on the TV and if I wasn't home -- I would TAPE them -- just so I didn't miss anything. LOL
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I did my good deed for the day
by neverthere inhubby came home with a purse he found on the road.
in it was an envelope stuffed with money, i mean alot!
of money.. it took half an hour but i tracked down the owner of the purse and called her.
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Purza
Good for you. I bet it felt really good to give it all back. I had my purse stolen and it was the worst feeling in the world -- it was found 8 months later and all the money was gone (of course). I am glad to see there are still honest, decent people out there.
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Congregation Book Studies in a brothers home-What weirdness did you endure?
by Thechickennest inwhen i was new witness in the late 70's i was assigned to young couples new home.
we were required to park our shoes inside the back door and proceed in our socks to the front room...fine.
the other piece to this was the couple hosting study had a big male blood hound dog of some kind.
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Purza
I once went to the bathroom at a sister's house and as I leaned over the sink to wash my hands, I got some water (or so I thought) on my skirt. Turns out it was bleach and ruined my skirt. I was pretty depressed about it since I didn't have much $$ to buy a lot of clothes.
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Do You Study the Bible With Your Kids?
by roybatty inwhen we were jws, studying with our kids, pumping their little minds with the wt's teaching was a top priority.
i remember studying the wt with them, then the biblereading, then the bookstudy, the the great teacher book,etc.
it seemed like it never ended.
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Purza
Nope. I had a hard time studying with her when I was supposedly doing good. She is not interested and was relieved when I told her we weren't going to the memorial last night.
I just know that if she wants to study religion in school I would be open to having her do that -- so she can choose for herself (not be forced into something her parents believe in). (btw, she is 13)
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First Post
by Purza ini am currently supposed to be working on my homework for a college course i am taking, but i seemed to be hooked on lurking.
i have been lurking for about a week now.
i made an appt.
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Purza
Thanks for the warm welcome and the words of advice and encouragement. I really need it.
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by Purza ini am currently supposed to be working on my homework for a college course i am taking, but i seemed to be hooked on lurking.
i have been lurking for about a week now.
i made an appt.
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Purza
it takes a lot of conscious effort and some time (usually) to 'step outside your way of thinking,' so to speak, and see how much your fears, attitudes and reactions have been shaped by the WT to suit their ends...to make you intimidated by them
Don't know how to put things in a quote box yet, but I do see your point. I understand it and I agree with it. Getting there is the difficult part. But realizing that I have been "brainwashed" is helping me to get over these things -- and makes me angry. I have been gone 2 years now and I am slowly (but surely) getting on with my life. The fear is becoming less and less, but unfortunately it is still there. Thanks for the encouragement.
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skipping Memorial & joining forum instead
by Art In Me inthis is my official liberation-opting to miss a memorial and joining the community here on this day.
i've been to the memorial maybe twice in 12 years but was "this close" to checking it out again for curiousness sake to see if i would feel differently as so much time has passed and beacuse i've changed so much.
anyone here ever wonder if you just imagined the horrorness of being a jw?
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Purza
I hear you loud and clear. Was/Am an elder's daughter too. Not proud of it anymore.
Welcome.
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Hot Off the Press- WE ARE NOT ATTENDING THE MEMORIAL-FIRST TIME
by wednesday ini have been feeling nervous all day.
my hubby has been out doing yardwork, so we hadn't talked too much.
finally we talked.
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Purza
I didn't go today either for the first time in 35 years. I did not want to be a hypocrite and go to my one meeting a year. Even though I thought about it on occassion today, I do not feel any guilt because I did not go. My best friend went (she doesn't attend meetings either), but she was irritable and dreading it. Glad I didn't get that way.
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by Purza ini am currently supposed to be working on my homework for a college course i am taking, but i seemed to be hooked on lurking.
i have been lurking for about a week now.
i made an appt.
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Purza
Greetings everyone. I am currently supposed to be working on my homework for a college course I am taking, but I seemed to be hooked on lurking. I have been lurking for about a week now. I made an appt. to see a counselor and I told the lady who answers the phone that I need help getting over my "guilt" about not being a JW anymore. They told me there were support groups for ex-JW's and I said NO WAY-- I am not ready for that. Three weeks later I decided to look and found this site.
I was born and raised a JW. DF'd at 19 and reinstated at 20. Divorced at 23 and scriptually divorced at 24 (what a joke). Tried SO hard to make it work for the past 10 years being single parent and all, but to no avail. I met the love of my life (non-JW) and he has helped me to see that I have been brainwashed all these years. It is not easy to understand the brainwashing, since the rules were so much a part of my life. But I am coming to the realization that I really was under their "control". Yes, I am not ready to preach against JW's -- don't know if I ever will be.
I wanted to walk away and get on with my life. But, my father doesn't speak to me and my brother turned me in to the elders. I ran away and hid. I moved about an hour away from where I was raised. I live in fear that I will run in to one of my old "friends" and they will "catch" me. Sometimes I feel like I am going insane because of this fear. I start counseling on Tuesday, and I hope I will be strong enough to prevail. I have read stuff that you guys write and I am finding that I am not alone.
Anyway, now that the fear of registering has passed and I am writing my first post, I feel okay. Just wanted to say thanks for listening and it really does help knowing I am not alone.