put yourself back in a dub's kids shoes and make up your own young people ask titles.. here's mine:.
young people ask:.
why do i have to go to these lousy meetings five times a week?.
roflmao doodle!
i think they should put you in charge of writing the articles from now on ;)
oh, and the self-righteous prick thing...would be followed up by this one:
-ypa why did the self righteous prick boy and the most prominent young pioneer sister get called into the elders room last week...came out looking green, but neither were df'd? and why is she puking every morning around 8 in the bathroom before the meeting for field service now?
what is the wt publication you hated the most?
why did you hate it?
for me, it was probably that damn pink great teacher book.
oh, undaunted danny, your post gave me chills. could be the story of my life.
why is it that when a small child raises their hand at the end of the bookstudy when the conductor asks 'are there any more comments before we close' and the child is called on, and says "i don't think parents should hit their children, it really hurts them.' that no one does a freaking thing????!!!!!!! if a three/four year old said that to you wouldn't you know there was something wrong?
i hated the revelation book too. pure, utter dreck, and the pictures are horrible for kids to have to see.
course, the my book of bible stories is a close second...*shudder*
fleur
this is a bit of a spinoff of these two threads:.
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/61698/1.ashx.
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/69308/1.ashx.
JW suicides: 4
df'd JW suicide: 1
attempted JW suicides: too many to count.
non-jw suicides/attempts; 0
i was born in the org. and left at the age of 25. i've been out almost seven years.
i'm not even including myself in the suicidal attempt/ideation catagory because depression runs in my family/comes with the neurological disease i have so i'm not part of the 'general population' so to speak...
it's so scary. and the people i know who did it were all young, healthy and had long lives ahead of them.
just so sad.
fleur
personally, i could care less about god and/or jesus, have no use for either of them, very disappointed in how they run things.
and when i die, i hope i get the chance to tell him/them that.. there was a great song in the late 80's early 90's by depeche mode called blasphemous rumours(spelling ?
) "i don't want to start any blasphemous rumours, but i think that god has a sick sense of humour, and when i die i expect to find him laughing.".
"I don't want to start any blasphemous rumours, but I think that God has a sick sense of humour, and when I die I expect to find him laughing."
i used to cry and drive around to that song for literally hours when i was a teenager, just wishing i had the guts to drive my car straight into something. that was when i felt that god must be right, and i must be wrong or i'd be happy in 'his service'. i'm glad i didn't do it, but the sentiment in the song still speaks to me.
that one and dear god by XTC still sum up the way i feel about "god."
if he/she/it is out there, it has to be a really vindictive, angry, sick being because otherwise it would DO SOMETHING about what is going on down here. if we are his creation...well geez, most people couldn't stand to see a dog or cat go through anything close to what is happening here on earth.
bride burnings. female mutilation. slavery. child molestation. stoning of women in the middle east for any trumped up charge the men want to create. babies murdered by sick women who happened to have given birth to them (and usually they kill them because 'god told them to') human rights injustices the whole world over.
yeah, i really think martin gore and co. had it right. if there is a god, it must have a sick sense of humor indeed.
duncan shiek did a great cover of that song, btw. totally different feel, same haunting message.
personally, i'm a lot better off believing that no one is in control of this mess that is humankind, otherwise i'd be a really angry, bitter person...
hugs,
fleur
left 2 years ago and surf nearly every night.
i was an elder for 11 years did circuit assembly items etc.
in fact i did everything the society said.
((((((((((Littlemike)))))))))))))
welcome!
what do i think of friends from the past?
i'd love to see them all out of the organization, free, and able to see the people they loved, whether they were jw's or not.
hope you find comfort here.
hugs,
fleur
this morning i woke up to go to the doctors office because of a terrible gout attack i had over the weekend and i just didn't feel like waking up.
i relly felt like commiting suicide because my life is somewhat hopeless.
the pain i'm going thru, the amount of time i'm missing on my job, the debt is increasing, i just didnt; feel like getting up and doint anything but taking my shotgun and shooting my brains out.
((((((((((homey))))))))))))))
sad to say i have been there, many times my friend. too many to want to remember.
i think that living with chronic pain/illness is something that healthy people just can't fathom; speaking about those who have the illness i do, well, suicide is very prevelant among ms patients.
my advice to you is make sure your pain is being adequitely treated, talk to someone you trust (therapist/doctor) and don't let the mood go any farther. if you're thinking about suicide, you need to make sure that somehow things are changed, dramatically. please remember what your wife would go through without you, imagine for a moment if the situation reversed, how you'd feel.
this is advice i should take myself, come to think of it.
it's thinking about that, quite honestly (what my suicide would do to my child and husband) that is the only thing a lot of days that keeps me from swallowing a bottle of something. i love them too much to give in to my own pain, and i owe it to them to be around for them.
then i put on some music and usually cry a lot. but i'm still here, thanks to anti-depressants and a man and little girl who love me more than i ever imagined anyone could.
big hugs, i hope it gets better soon. get help, if you need to. don't hesistate. you don't deserve to feel that way and the world would be a colder, harder place without you.
fleur
put yourself back in a dub's kids shoes and make up your own young people ask titles.. here's mine:.
young people ask:.
why do i have to go to these lousy meetings five times a week?.
omg, you all have me lmao.
young people ask; why is it okay for elders kids to *@&! everyone in the congregation but john q. publisher will get df'd for it no matter what?
-why do they tell my mom to 'pray more and wait on jehovah' instead of divorcing my dad who beats us all?
-why doesn't anyone care that brother sundayspeaker was drunk at a wedding last night and feeling me up every chance he got?
-why is it that they baptized me before puberty hit but say infant baptism is a sin?
-can the whole congregation tell that i a)used a tampon b)jacked off right before the meeting? LOL
-why should i feel guilt to the point of being suicidal if i was born gay?
-why do they talk about sex so much at meetings if no ones supposed to be having it? LOL
just a few of the things i'm sure my friends and i would have loved to see in the magazines...
fleur
i heard some sad news today.
an old friend of my mum's has apparentely committed suicide.
i remember the woman well, a devout jw with an amazing sense of humour and a lovely personality.
it's almost a year since a dear old jw friend of mine committed suicide.
i was so sad to find out he was df'd at the time, i would have called him up.
still can't believe he's gone :(
fleur
"I spent most of 6 months of my marriage of one yr on the couch because I refused to sleep with him... so he was definately a pain to have in the bed.. "
boy can i relate to that too. i slept on the couch about that long until i saved enough money from my new job to buy a bed (was also saving to file for divorce since ex held all the money hostage).
memmmmmories....like the corners of my minddddddddd...
man, i wouldn't go back to that point in time for a million dollars. *shudder*
hugs
fleur
i'll tell you what niggles me and makes me cringe at the same time, its sitting in a boring lecture at work on a managers "away day" and having someone keep using those same tired dick-head phrases that i hate.. eg:.
"lets think outside the box".
"lets all network in groups".
those !($Y!#@ jehovah's witnesses!
also, lifetime retail managers. (not people who are, say, putting themselves thru school with the job). anyone who has worked with one knows what i mean, no need to explain. they are an unhappy, angry lot.
