Posts by Karissa

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

Shoot it's not Newberry where they live it's Casselbury, FL

I'm not feeling as well today as I have been. I keep going back and forth.

I'm at work and this is hard also because he worked here too. :(

I hope to God I get over this soon-

Maybe I should plan a trip to Mexico.

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Your right, I do think of only the good things right now. I hate it- Like he and I spending time on his boat fishing or dancing in the living room for hours, cooking together, our walks and talking and talking till 4 or 5 in the morning. These are the type of things I miss the most. These are the things that make me so sad now. What really sucks to is that we didn't have many bad times to focus on. But now that I know what a liar and cheater he is I need to focus on that. Right??? Right!

I don't think I have to worry about ever taking him back- I don't think he would actually ever show his face to me again.

Thanks for your comments- All the comments I have been receiving are helping me more than you know. : )

K

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

I know I shouldn't feel bad for him right now but I do. (Am I an idiot?) Like I said earlier, it's hard to hurt someone you love. And yes, even when he probobly deserves it and after what he did to me it's still hard.

I feel even worse for the wife because I'm sure she believes in him like I did. He really convinced me of his true love. I even now have mixed feeling about this. I go back and fourth with, I know he really loves me TO he faked everything and didn't love me at all.

I have the feeling (after seeing all the people that have read this) that after I have done what I did in posting my our relationship last night that they may already know. What do you think?

K

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

Right now I'm feeling a bit better- Going swimming with the kids and going to try and enjoy my day. Today is the first day I actually feel as though I will beable to move forward. Still very sad and missing the jerk but I do see that thing just might be alright without him- Hooray!

So glad I have you all- It's because of people like you that I have a smile on my face now.

THANK YOU! : D

PS: I'll keep everyone posted on what I do with all the pictures and letters. (maybe I'll post them on this site. hehe) Going to sit on my options for awhile.

Talk to you all soon.....

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

That sounds like a good idea although I feel like doing this would be very vendictive. In spite of all that he has done to me and how much he has hurt me. I would feel bad for hurting him in return. I guess I need to get over the loving him part first. It's hard to hurt someone you love. Like writing what has happened between he and I last night and submiting it to this group, I had no idea how many responses I would get. I'm getting nervous now that an elder in the Newberry area may already have caught wind of this.

I go back and fourth with this. Should I send everything off to them or not??? Paul has told me that his wife already knows everything and has forgivin him. She may not be interested in seeing our pictures and all of the loving letters (e-mails) She may be choosing to believe what he says even though It's only part of the truth. I feel bad for her...

I dunno-

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

Anyone live in or near the Newberry FL area.

I think I may like the idea's of some of you-

Ohhh boy!

Karrisa

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THANKS FROM KARISSA!

by Karissa in

your all making feel better- i am actually laughing at the moment with some of your comments.

haven't felt this good in weeks..... yeaahhh, he is a dirt bag!.

thanks guys!.

Karissa

Your all making feel better- I am actually laughing at the moment with some of your comments. THANK YOU! Haven't felt this good in weeks....

Yeaahhh, he is a dirt bag!

Thanks guys!

Karissa

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Falling in love .........

by HappyDad in

old happydad here!.

i've been on this board for less than two weeks and have met a lot of great xjw's.

this board is a good way to vent and share what is on the mind from what we have experienced.. my question is.........has anyone ever met anyone online or an ex jw whom you have so much in common with...on this board in particular and made posts that led to pm's .....that led to e-mail..........that led to phone calls...............that led to personal visits......that led to a real loving relationship.......and beyond?.

Karissa

Thanks for your nice words. : )

Karissa

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My heart has been broken in two -JW- HE IS MARRIED!!!

by Karissa in

my boyfriend and i (or i should say ex-boyfriend.

) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months.

this is not a long time i know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful.

Karissa

My boyfriend and I (or I should say ex-boyfriend.) have been dating for about 5 1/2 months. This is not a long time I know but within this time we had both fell deeply in love with each other, it was very fast and very strong, heartfelt and beautiful. We did everything together, from weekend outings with my 2 children to grocery shopping or just hanging out for days at home being together and loving it. We were happy, very happy. He practically lived with me and stayed overnight at least 5 nights a week. There were 2 times that he left for Florida on business (so he said.) Once in December and once in February. Other than that he was with me with the exception of maybe two weekends. We had a few problems from time to time. One of them was me not being allowed to meet his friends or family because he was worried they would not approve being I am not a JW. This hurt me but he assured me that in time things would be different. The second problem was that he was jeoulous. He erased numbers from my cell phone, got extremely upset when he would see pictures of me and a ex-boyfriend, and would not put up with me going out where other men would be. I agreed to all this because I was in love and wanted to make him happy and this seemed to do it.. I gave up my friends and even some family members because he loved just being alone and being together as I did. We always spoke of how "this is it" he and I had found true love, we spoke of the future, marriage and how we would be lost without one another. He always told me that his biggest fear would be that I would meet someone better and leave him. I assured him that I would never do this because I truly was in love with him and wanted us forever. I really really did.

The last month of our relationship he started speaking of moving and how I could get my ex-husband to approve taking the kids out of state to move with him since financially he could not afford to stay in California. This was not possible since my children go to their dads every other weekend and it wouldn't be fair to the kids to take them away from the dad. Three weeks ago he told me he got a job offer in Texas and an old friend of his was willing to fly him out for the interview and that he could stay there for awhile until he decided what he wanted to do. I was of course very upset about him even going to check it out but trusted that our love was strong enough and that he would return home soon. The whole time he was in Texas (I thought.) we would speak and write through e-mail. He would tell me he wasn't sure what he wanted to do but he did know one thing, that he didn't want to lose me, he wanted to stay together and that he loved me very much. I, at that time just wanted him to come home and I started getting worried.

About 2 weeks ago when we spoke one morning he had said that he wasn't sure if he would make it home for the weekend and he asked me to be patcient. I was feeling suspicious. Something didn't sound right. As soon as we said our I love you's and hung up the phone I called his mother saying I was from his bank and needed to contact him. (I know this was wrong to lie, I didn't feel good about it but am sure glad I did it now.) She said: "He is out of State right now" and gave me the number to where I could reach him. She also gave me information on how he drove out of state with his truck and boat. (He didn't fly after all?) I looked up the phone number on my PC and found that the number was not Texas, it was a Florida number. The number was listed under his ex-wifes name. My heart hit the floor and I immediatly called and he answered the phone. He sounded so scared and shocked to hear my voice on his so called ex-wifes phone. (I wish I could have seen his face.) he told me that he was just in the area visiting his brother and that he stopped by to say hello to his ex-wife and that he would sleep in the extra room, he swore he didn't love her, he told me he loved me and that he didn't want to tell me that he would stop by there in fear I would get upset. He assured me that nothing was going on with her at all although she wanted to get back together but he didn't want to because he loved me. All I could say was COME HOME- he said he would if I promised to trust him again and love him. He said he would make it up to me, never lie again and stay by my side and never ever do anything like this again. The next day he said if he comes home he would lose everything- his boat, 401K and everything else he had worked so hard for. Later that day he called and said that he decided that he is not coming home. I was and still am so hurt and confused. Why would he keep me holding on to the very end. Up until I caught him in these lies he was telling me he didn't want us to end, that he loved me and didn't want to split up. If I wouldn't have caught him in these lies I would still probobly be told that he's in Texas and that he loves me, wants me to wait and to be patcient.

I called the congregation that he and his ex-wife went to in California when she lived here with him. I ended up speaking to a woman that knew both of them very well. She had informed me that he has not been divorced and was still in a loving relationship with his wife. I was told that he was here finishing up his job and she was in Florida taking care of a sick relative. Thatthey never split up or divorced.

He told me form the beggining that he was divorced from her for 1 1/2 years and that she was still a friend of his and his family. I had no idea whatsoever that he was married ---. He told me why he divorced her, sexual problems among other things and that they just weren't meant to be together. It was all lies. I was shocked to find out how untrue he was to me about her and their marriage..

In recent e-mails from him, he still tells me he loves me, did indeed want a future and is still telling me that he is not married. Since I caught him in all these lies he had to tell her about me in fear that I would contact her myself. He called me and told me that he told her everything and that he has to go in front of the elders to tell them everything as well. But his everything is not the same as what really happened between he and I. He is lying to everyone to save himself from divorce and most importanty losing all he has.

I am not sure what to do at this point. I have tons of his clothes here which I will ship to him- What I am debating on now though is all the love letters, cards, and all the pictures of us together, do I send them to her? I know he is not telling her or the elders the whole truth. Should I send the proof or should I let this go?

He has spoken to me alot about wanting me to find the truth. We have read the bible together and he had gotten my interest up in the JW faith. While he was in Texas (I thought.) I decided to study a bit with a JW neighbor- Wanting to learn more and wanting to surprise him with what I have learned when he returned.

He seemed so pure and convincing with his love for me, he cried many times about how much he loved me, he would tell me that he never ever had a love like ours and never wanted to blow what we had together. I feel betrayed, lied on and basically foolish for giving him my heart. I gave him all of me and he took it. He took it so far, all the way home to his wife he took my love and kept me hanging on with his I Love you's and telling me he didn't want us to end.

I am so sorry for the long, long letter here. I need to feel human again and really don't know where to turn.

Any words to help me get through this heartache would be greatly appreciated, I feel as though I am dying inside. I'm having trouble sleeping and eating. He was so involved in my life that everywhere is a reminder. My daughter just today was telling me in the car that she misses him so much. It breaks my heart.

Please tell me that all JW's are not like this.- I don't know who to trust anymore. The worse part about this is that I know he loves me- I know he does, it's as though he has to play a part because he has to. He has no choice but to live these lies. He fears losing his family and all the material things that mean so much to him.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks