Hi holly. Congrats on making sure you make a conscious choice.
Just to address one of the points:
i asked about 144000 and why so many still alive, all over 90, it wasnt feasible. she said some had been replaced. if someone falls away, some are replaced, so may be younger.
So why do the great majority of the modern annointed bunch come from Western countries. What's wrong with the Chinese or with Muslims? They won't get represented in the heavenly government? Besides if you look at the historical estimates, the number of early christians is generally estimated at much more than 144,000. And the number of "registered" annointed JWs is something at least about 50,000+. (there was another thread on it recently) Looks like Jehovah created some extra vacancies.
i asked why god didnt just show himself. she said people asked jesus the same thing and he said 'if youve seen the son youve seen the father'. i told her i havent seen the son either.
LOL :-)).
I guess this bit says it all:
it obvious your heart isnt in the right condition at this present time'
Translation: You are unwilling to lie to yourself at this present time. You are not ready to buy into those silly explanations. Go and repent. Then get back and swallow it all without further questions.
Pole