My depression took a very strange form. It was pointed out to me by others (on more than one occasion) that I had a "monthly" problem!
I would suddenly shift mental gears and become angry. My anger was hair-trigger. I would become hyper aware of slights from others. I would challenge, verbally, anyone for anything.
And the worst part? I had a persistent semi-compulsion to smash my head in the wall! Yes. I just wanted to hurt myself.
If this were a TV advert, right now the soothing music would begin......
One day, I was told by a friend to try St.John's Wort. I looked it up and researched the effects of this so-called "natural" remedy for depression. (Black widow spiders and heart-attacks are natural too, I complained).
After determining it would not kill me outright I began taking the St.John's Wort in pill form. I experimented with dosage and with brand names.
IT WORKED!
That is, the possibly placebo effect worked. I don't know if it was the pills or the expectation.
I reasoned about it this way.
When I tried several brands, only one of those brands worked. Would this be the case with a placebo? Also, if I didn't take two pills I had no response. If I discontinued the pills it would come back suddenly: the anger.
After about two years on the St.John's Wort I went off of it again. The depression was pemanently gone.
There were no side effect issues. No reduction in sexual desire or potency. Nobody was murdered. No smashed head.
I mention this for what it is worth. Tests on people taking the St.John's Wort are inconclusive. It could very well BE a placebo. But, perhaps the kind of depression and the brain chemistry have more to do with it than that. I don't know.
But, I've been depression free now for a long time.
More power to any of you who succeed like I have.
Terry