wow...this is a tough one. i'm kind of with DSJ on this one.
first of all, i was not really happy when i was in it. my truly happy memories were always when i was doing things that would eventually get me in trouble...
i gotta say though, that so far for me, being out sucks. it doesn't suck the same way as being in, but it still sucks. i know these things take time and i hate that i'm proving them right in a sense by not being happier than i am right now, but i think this will pass with time. the emotional and mental abuse you sustain while in the org just doesn't allow for happiness at my current stage of the detox process. i just don't think it's possible right now. i still have to grieve for my childhood and my future with my family and friends.
it's all relative though...knowing what i know now, if i were to go back to the religion, only then would i realize what unhappiness really is. so in that respect, i'm basically jumping up and down for friggin joy right now.