I hate the way they say Jehovah brings things to light when 9 out of 10 times its usually the person committing the "wrongdoing" or someone else witnessing the "wrongdoing" that comes forth and tells. I used to hate that. That's the only way they find out stuff. Nosey people telling on someone when they have the "camel in their eye" complex or from the elders being "sherlock "elder" homes" and following you because your meeting attendance/field service time has dropped. That's the only way they find out stuff. I wonder how many times has Jehovah actually showed them somebody was doing this and you need to talk to them.
I JUST WISH THEY WOULD "THINK" FOR THEMSELVES FOR ONCE IN THEIR LIFE
I'm in the same boat with you. I was inactive for almost an year before I finally decided to go ahead and have the JC meeting. I already knew what the outcome would be, but now for some reason, I guess because I've been going to church and getting a better relationship with GOD I see more how they are a bunch of ________ (fill in the blank with whatever you want to) and want people to believe you are dead if you're not a JW.