I know that "SICK FEELING IN THE PIT OF THE STOMACH!
I got it first at the 1993 A$$embly when they changed the "When you see these tHings", which made me suspect they would dump the Generation of 1914.
When the Witchtower came out changing the generation teaching, I felt sick. Getting up for work in the morning felt like torture - I neede to lie down and come to terms with the fact that we had all been hoodwinked. Over the next few years I began to DRINK whilst attending the kingdumb hell. It was the only way I thought I could stay sane: drink enough so you dont think too hard.
Then i got the Encyclopedia Brittanica CD. looked up JWs, and started the journey away.