Posts by Beloved

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Sick of it all!

by Beloved in

at least i'm not in denial :) .

i'm a jw along with my parents.

my family has been pretty rough to me, my dad especially.

Beloved

I'm sorry I've been gone away for so long. I went camping with my brother, and I haven't been able to get online a lot lately. I seem to be forbidden from everything.

Nos- No, it wasn't my brother's buisness to do that. Some of the stuff, I needed for camping, but it wasn't his buisness to go get it for me, when I could have easily been able to do so.

I'm going to keep my eye out for appartments and jobs in Michigan, the only thing that is really hard, is if someone wants an interview, I can't go and give it to them. I know my brother doesn't want me on my own - he hasn't done anything to help me with it.

I might be going to work with my dad for two weeks in Michigan. I'd be getting about $10 an hour, and it would be great to have some money to fall back on. The only thing is that I'll be maybe 20 minutes away from my girlfriend, and I wont be able to see her, much less call her on the phone.

My girlfriend's been more depressed that usual. Not only is it because I'm here, and our anniversary is coming shortly, it's because her health isn't good. She's 17 and has an ulcer, she's diabetic, and they think she might have a brain tumor or something. Her family's health isn't much better- her grandma's going in for another surgery. She's so depressed, and I feel completely useless because I can't be there. She's always telling me she loves me, that none of this is my fault and that I shouldn't worry because everything will be ok. She says it's ok that I'm not with her, she says she doesn't hold it against me. But it makes me feel bad, because I can't be there when she goes to the doctor's.

We haven't spoken in over two weeks. All I have is a picture of her. I'm sure she thinks I like it here, I'm always talking about it, always acting like everything's ok. I just don't want to make her more depressed. I know she feels horrible, but there's nothing I can do, which makes me feel horrible.

I know I should make my world revolve around her, but I don't know what to do anymore. She was my everything, and now my everything is so hard to talk to.

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Sick of it all!

by Beloved in

at least i'm not in denial :) .

i'm a jw along with my parents.

my family has been pretty rough to me, my dad especially.

Beloved

I've read all of your replies, and I thank you immensily for your help.

My girlfriend and I actually aren't doing so good. I can't get a job because I'm not legal here, and I haven't a place to go or job when I get to the states. My brother actually went to her house last week and got the rest of my stuff. There was a letter inside, pictures, a couple of her poems, and an arrowhead (I adore those things). When I called her, she was crying and upset. Her grandmother's birthday is today, and she's been having a rough time dealing with it. The fact that I'm not there, only makes things worse.

I need to get my life together.

I'll update you if anything else happens. Thanks, again, for all your replies, you really don't know how greatful I am.

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Sick of it all!

by Beloved in

at least i'm not in denial :) .

i'm a jw along with my parents.

my family has been pretty rough to me, my dad especially.

Beloved

I want to thank you all for your responses.

Control seems to be a big thing in my life right now, which is why I want to get out of it. At first, I thought I was the only one who thought that, but thank you for proving me wrong.

I would absolutly love to go out and be with her, but I can't drive yet, legally, and I don't have a car. If I were to leave, I'm sure my brother wouldn't let me back because his wife has controlled him as well. I miss her incredibly. I can't even talk to her right now, I've got a couple more days until I can call her for those wonderful 10 minutes.

She is my support, and no, I haven't told her that, but I intend to soon. I love her. I just wish my parents would understand that and let me see her.

I need to get my life under control, you're right. But I can't sem to. I graduated, and had to immediatly move to my brothers. There is a job lined up for me, but it apparently isn't going very well. I would be out of here as soon as I can, but I have no place to go.

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Sick of it all!

by Beloved in

at least i'm not in denial :) .

i'm a jw along with my parents.

my family has been pretty rough to me, my dad especially.

Beloved

I need help. <--Look! At least I'm not in denial :)

I'm a JW along with my parents.

My family has been pretty rough to me, my dad especially. He used to throw me around and hit me. When I had a 103 fever, they would poor ice cold water over me while I was sleeping and made me get up for church. I could never miss it, even if I had a fever, migraine, flu, etc.

When I was 17 (last year) I ran away. Jumped out my window and just went. I ended up at my girlfriend's house (who doesn't have a specifed religion, she's learning about them all) for about 9 months. I lived with two other people during the school year so I could finish high scool. I graduated, and my stay was over. I ended up at my brother's house in Canada (I live in Michigan). He's a JW. He doesn't always practice it, but basically does. His wife is as well, and so are the two wonderful children they had together.

I haven't seen my girlfriend for a month now, and I only talk to her once a week for about 10 minutes. We're still going strong. For the fourth of July, I was supposed to go to her house (she's had bad experiences with the holiday, and I wanted to be there for her). My brother said I could go, and the plans were made for her to come pick me up that Saturday. Friday night comes, and my brother tells me it would be a bad idea to go because my parents were coming up to speak with me, and his wife didn't like the idea and got mad at him. I had to call my girlfriend 20 minutes before midnight and tell her it was off. She was devistated, and so was I.

It's no secret that my parents hate my girlfriend. They dispise her and called her a slut to her face.

I just want my parents to accept me for who I am, and let me make my own choices. My girlfriend and I have been together for over a year and a half, and we're still in love. My parents wont change that, but if we get married, and want to be able to invite them, and have them not bite her head of.

So, my question to all of you: Why is it that JWs can't have relationships out of their religion with parental consent? God doesn't want hatred. He wants togetherness, but why are we so seperated? Why can't we speak to those out of our religion?