Candidly,
Me too!!
it wasn't the big stuff that made me decide i could never go back, it was one little thing.
i have been thinking about my journey out of "the truth", and i think i can pin-point the last straw.. .
i had been out for years, but always thinking that if i got my head together someday i would be good enough to go back.
all you have to do is answer this "simple" questionaire
xxxxx has applied to join worldwide brotherhood on the web.. .
since your group is set up with a restricted membership, you must approve the application before xxxxx can join and participate in the group.
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i am sorry but i have just reached my 500 post wait-----------i know its boring but i havent celebrated my birthday or christmas for so long pleassssssssssse indulge me.
say something nice .
it wasn't the big stuff that made me decide i could never go back, it was one little thing.
i have been thinking about my journey out of "the truth", and i think i can pin-point the last straw.. .
i had been out for years, but always thinking that if i got my head together someday i would be good enough to go back.
There was an incident that got me going on the road, it wasn't the final straw but it was that very important first straw.
After the meeting to formally disfellowship my formerly elder husband. I went up to the overseer and said, "Well I guess we can't go to Poland. Our family had been "chosen" to go on some trip to Poland to represent the U.S witnesses/visit those less fiscally fortunate. It was 1989. Anywho I had been through the most awful events possible during the previous weeks and my poor shattered brain focused on the trip.
The overseer said I can't really give you the answer, it wouldn't be proper. He walked over to my newly disfellowshipped husband and told him, with me standing right there that we couldn't go to Poland.
these last 2 months have been the worst of my life.
i can only answer my subject question by saying the purpose of life is the 4 things sought after in the wizard of oz: love, courage, intelligence, and home.. and we all possess them whether we know it or not.
and especially love.
my daughter-in-law recently gave a very nice baby shower for her cousin.
the next day at the meeting she was called into the library and counselled for playing games.
i asked her what the basis was.
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i'd like to get comments from people about whether and how much they were shocked, surprised, or otherwise bothered by the watchtower society's becoming an associated non-governmental organization (ngo).. note that i'd like to see these comments because they might lead to some interesting publicity, so please comment accordingly.. alanf
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thanks everyone who told me how to log back on.....i was racking my brains wondering what i had done/said wrong that had got me banned from posting.
love eye 23
as many of you know, i have had some severe emotional issues the last couple of months.
repression from growing up jw and being so damned responsible for all my years and setting aside emotions....... now the emotions are finally kicking their way through the door and coming out with a vengeance.
i found a piece on a website devoted to anti-depressants and i normally don't do this but i thought i would share it with the board.