Successfully faded. I stopped attending meetings regularly over 15 years ago.
I stayed in depressed state because I believed that somehow they still had the 'truth' but it was just a little warped and needed to be cleaned up a bit.
I didn't date and didn't celebrate holidays for a long time.
Dating came first. Started celebrating some holidays with new boyfriend about 3 years ago.
Know that I've finally learned the truth about the truth, I will never, ever go back.