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  I have two interviews coming up: wish me Luck!

  by TresHappy in

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  Aude_Sapere

  Good Luck!!
  Let us how they go.
  -Aude.
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  by 5thGeneration in

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  some things confuse me here.

  i am in the same position as many where i don't agree with so much the society says and feel stuck dragging myself to the meetings and then feel incredible guilt because the study for the day says it is wrong to have any doubts "even in private".

  impossible for me!.

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  **But still plagued by guilt because Society says .....
  
  The guilt is overwhelming for me!**
  
  I know this feeling. That guilt will kill you.
  My personal feeling (if you care to hear it) is that you and Jehovah know if you are really being 'disrespectful'. Sounds like just the opposite to me. You are looking to protect your wife from possible serious side-effects of contraceptives (respecting HER life and dignity) and maintaining the closeness that you have as a family. People choose to limit family size for so many reasons.
  You and Jehovah (and, hopefully, your wife) know full-well that a decision to have a vasectomy has NOTHING to do with DISrespect.
  Gotta let go of that guilt. Seriously, it can kill you.
  Certainly it can kill your true spirituality.
  It's spiritual abuse. I already believe that you are smarter than that.
  
  -Aude.
  
  PS I remember some threads here a few months ago about FOG.
  To see clearly, we need to get out of the FOG. Fear - Obligation - Guilt.
  Does anyone have the links???
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  by 5thGeneration in

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  some things confuse me here.

  i am in the same position as many where i don't agree with so much the society says and feel stuck dragging myself to the meetings and then feel incredible guilt because the study for the day says it is wrong to have any doubts "even in private".

  impossible for me!.

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  This is nice thera and PERFECT timing for me.
  Thanks for keeping it going!!
  
  Welcome to JWD, 5g! (insert smilie wave here)
  
  So much of what you state rings true for me. I so remember being conflicted about 11 or 12 years ago.
  
  I suddenly saw a clear distinction between Jehovah and Jesus and the WTS. I saw that the WTS was - in my heart - going against Jehovah's will. I ignorred that pain in my heart and tried to adjust my understanding. I just could not reconcile their then-current truth with what I clearly understood the Bible to say. After one meeting, I left immediately at the end of the closing prayer. Said my own brief prayer to Jehovah. "Jehovah, you know better than I do why I cannot stay and condone what I am seeing and hearing here. Please know that I am not leaving you. I just need to distance myself from these people."
  
  I trusted the Jehovah knew what was in my heart and it was just making me sick being in the Hall. I guess I 'marked' the organization. Not all the people in it, but the org as a whole.
  
  Thanks again for sharing! Glad to have you along and looking forward to hearing more of your thoughts.
  
  btw -
  **Vasectomies: Wrong. It is disrespect for God's reproductive gift. Cannot serve if you get one (I was an M.S.). **
  
  HUH???? This is news to me. What about tubal ligation? A MUCH more dangerous proceedure. If vasectomies are disrespectful, wouldn't condoms, contraceptives and tubal ligations also be disrespectful?
  Sorry. It sounds like the old guys are rearing their ugly misogynistic heads again.
  
  -Aude Sapere (meaing: Dare to Know; Dare to have Knowledge/Wisdom)
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  JWD Family...

  by RichieRich in

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  in another thread, honesty said:you did get switched at birth and we finally found you.

  almost all of your real family (us) were switched at birth also so it was one helluva deal to get you back with us.

  but we are happy we found you.

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  ... and I guess that makes me Arrowstar and Peaches distant cousin by 2nd marriage ...
  
  
  Although, Crumpet's new avatar looks SOOO much like a picture I have of myself from maybe 15 years ago... We just might be related. We'll have to talk, Crumpet and I.
  
  -Aude. (can't wait for the real re-union so I can actually meet some of you.!!)
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  In the end, I can't help but laugh

  by Texas Flood in

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  i'm new too posting here but i've been lurking since the summer.

  how i came across this site?

  a brother at one of them conventions warned us about 'sites on the internet that can threaten our faith' and i was like "psh if this is the truth, what information could possibly do that?

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  Hi There, Texas Flood!!
  
  Happy to have you here. Thanks for 'speaking' up!!
  
  -Aude.
  (Born and raised in NJ)
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  What is you (or somebodies) best blooper in the KH?

  by DannyBloem in

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  for example: we had a 'faithfull' brother getting older and confused.

  when something did not really went as he liked it (didn't get the answer etc) he shouted very loudly 'god doom me in the hell!

  one time i had to do the closing prayer on the midweek meeting.

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  **We were going over the "Creation" book at the weekly bookstudy, and my little brother gave a long comment about how "orgasms" (meant to say organisms) were created, and how this orgasm is nothing like that orgasm, all orgasms are unique and there's no way a walking orgasm could ever be the same thing as an orgasm that lives in the water...etc**
  
  Same thing happened in my bookstudy. Brother had been married for about a year. He kept saying orgams when the word was really 'organism'. He was soo embarrassed and we were all trying to stiffle our laughter.
  
  He wasn't a very good reader to begin with. After the fourth or fifth time, he would stop at each word. Take a breath. His wife would say 'or-gan-ism' and he would repeat. At one point she said 'or-gasm' and everyone completely lost it.
  
  Ahhhh Fun memories.
  -Aude.
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  What is you (or somebodies) best blooper in the KH?

  by DannyBloem in

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  for example: we had a 'faithfull' brother getting older and confused.

  when something did not really went as he liked it (didn't get the answer etc) he shouted very loudly 'god doom me in the hell!

  one time i had to do the closing prayer on the midweek meeting.

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  Meeting for service.
  My younger brother was one of those goofy, overly-brilliant kids who thought they could outsmart the adults. He had red hair and freckles to boot.
  He was maybe 9 or 10 years old.
  My dad was leading the group and asked if anyone had any suggested presentations for the magazines that morning. Cocky little brother in his orange plaid sport coat raises his hand and gives his presentation about Guns and violence and how terrible they are and kill people. In the New System, God won't allow guns. It's one way that he wipe out every tear from our eyes.
  
  Clever you think??
  The lead article in the Awake that he was offering was:
  What can be done about GUM trouble. - as in periodontal disease.
  
  LOL
  -Aude.
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  Speaking slowly "for the sisters"

  by Grace in

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  i was looking at the long list of jw "don'ts" and "can'ts" someone posted here and i was reminded of a talk at the service meeting an elder gave once.

  it was from one of the most elementary of publications (aren't they all???

  ) and the elder on the platform said, "i'll speak slowly for the sisters.

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  The ones I really wanted to deck were the ones that would say: "Isn't he so kind and loving. Looking out for the sisters to make sure they were included."
  
  UGGHH!!
  -Aude.
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  I wish i was adopted...

  by kittyeatzjdubs in

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  yet again my dear matt wanted to make an attempt to break the ice with my father and his stupid new wife, whom i feel no responsibility to like or accept because she's young enough to be my father's daughter (she's 29 and my father's 60!!!

  ) and she's trifling and two faced.

  i honestly feel that she's just with him for the money.

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  **no he's not...that's what kills me...i'd expect this from the rest of my jdub family...not him...**
  
  Sometimes people are just rude.
  No jw influence needed.
  
  Sounds like Matt's a real decent guy. I think I'd be inclined to find other associates than my own difficult, rude and judgemental family.
  
  -Aude.
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  I wish i was adopted...

  by kittyeatzjdubs in

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  yet again my dear matt wanted to make an attempt to break the ice with my father and his stupid new wife, whom i feel no responsibility to like or accept because she's young enough to be my father's daughter (she's 29 and my father's 60!!!

  ) and she's trifling and two faced.

  i honestly feel that she's just with him for the money.

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  Aude_Sapere

  **btw....thanks guys. sometimes i wish ya'll were my real family...**
  
  There's family of birth.
  And there's family of choice.
  
  Choose to be the people who really love you unconditionally and who respect your right to make your own decisions.
  
  -Aude.