Welcome to the discussion board, 5g. You have taken the first step towards "leaving the Society", which is asking questions.
It's okay to ask questions, the WT Society even says so. They only encourage it when you are leaving other religions and investigating theirs! However, using the minds we have (provided, many believe by Jehovah or the God of the Bible), how could such a God ever want us to not use our mind?
Indeed, the WT Society discourages "independent thinking". That must mean, by inference, that they only allow "dependent thinking", that is -- dependent on THEM and their current views.
As far as blaspheming Jehovah, we really need to define Jehovah. As a JW, the thought was that obedience to Jehovah = obedience to the organization and the human leaders its provides. Therefore, Jehovah is on par with the organization. Technically, you cannot blaspheme an organization.
As far as blaspheming God, there's a whole range of views on God here. My take is that he really hasn't made himself or his purposes very clear. Some humans think they have some inside scoop about God's purposes, but when all is said and done, they're just guessing and trying to interpret ancient texts. I think it's up to God to clarify himself, and until then if any have doubts about him, it's just because they're using their heads and not just wishing for something to be true.
