Back to Zaina’s experience....”But she says: “I never allowed myself to doubt the organization or Jehovah’s love.”.
She never allowed herself, that shows that doubt was there but she refused to entertain the thought. We have all done that , had long-standing recurring doubt that you don’t allow yourself to indulge in. One day though you do allow yourself to think the unthinkable...... and that is when your faith collapses.