Great thread! I remember all the meetings and bookstudies and how serious I took it all. The revelation book was so deep but made so easy to understand by the society. I was so impressed and felt I was a real bible student. I felt pity for the worldly people I knew and would always wonder how I could get them to listen to me. But like a lot of witnesses I didn't really try super hard to convert people because I was nervous and maybe a bit embarrassed by some of the teachings. Weird mix, on one hand I totally believed everything but on the other I was sort of embarrassed and hid the fact I was a dub at work and school.
I get sad because I feel that if I was a better husband my wife would have folowed me out. It is probably not true but it's its a feeling I,sill have to live with. At least my kids are out.