I truly think this will help with the feelings of despair. I keep very active in the day so its only when I am by myself sometimes (and weekends) when I am not doing anything that I get down. I suppose the trick is to get out and do something. How would I do this? How can I meet people? I dont really think the bar scene is the way to go. Besides I wouldnt like going into any place like that by myself. Much as I love the computer I think personal contact is also important. Must search more on forum for more answers .... Thanks For being so supportive, this is great.
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by bonnie95 ini just found this forum since i have lost all my friends (yes i was disfellowshiped two weeks ago).
pain is so great.
i was married (going on 20 years) to a man who was in the congregation but was abusive to me the whole time ... physical at first then switched to mind games that threw me into a depression for years.
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by bonnie95 ini just found this forum since i have lost all my friends (yes i was disfellowshiped two weeks ago).
pain is so great.
i was married (going on 20 years) to a man who was in the congregation but was abusive to me the whole time ... physical at first then switched to mind games that threw me into a depression for years.
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Thanks Prisca,
Trying to endure coming out of this marraige, setting up a new home, and dealing with money problems etc ... losing all my friends (or at least people I could talk to) is so hard. I realize I have to go on and make new friends or this could kill me ... I am strong but at times feel so weak. I hope to find people who might live close to Chicago so I could at least start somewhere ... just real scared. But this is a start ......
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by bonnie95 ini just found this forum since i have lost all my friends (yes i was disfellowshiped two weeks ago).
pain is so great.
i was married (going on 20 years) to a man who was in the congregation but was abusive to me the whole time ... physical at first then switched to mind games that threw me into a depression for years.
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Thanks Abaddon.... I really do think I will like this forum, it puts me in communication with other people whom have been where I am, which is very hard for the majority of people to understand. I grew up in the truth and it is so ingrained in parts of me, but then I had that 'other side' which I still do not understand.
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by bonnie95 ini just found this forum since i have lost all my friends (yes i was disfellowshiped two weeks ago).
pain is so great.
i was married (going on 20 years) to a man who was in the congregation but was abusive to me the whole time ... physical at first then switched to mind games that threw me into a depression for years.
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I just found this forum since I have lost all my friends (yes I was disfellowshiped two weeks ago). Pain is so great. I was married (going on 20 years) to a man who was in the congregation but was abusive to me the whole time ... physical at first then switched to mind games that threw me into a depression for years. We had countless "meetings" with the elders and the advice ( I was told to endue ... endure ... endure) but once the doors were closed and no one was there ... it was so difficult. I left him two times before, for short periods, but since we had small children and I felt they needed their father so I would go back. My kids are older now and they said they appreciate me staying but it was time for me to go on, as the depression did not get any better - getting suicidal - So I left but my big mistake was that after I left, I felt I never wanted to have to go back, like before when the elders strongly suggested I do so. I went and commited adultry and as I had almost done it before (2 times) it was considered I was not repentant and so I was d/f'd. This was done at the new congregation I am attending. I agree with them as I need to straighten my life out, but now my problem is how do I go on??? I am not suppose to associate with any witnesses (only friends I ever had) and now I am left with absolutely nothing and no one to help me through this. I continue to cry at what I lost ... and it is not for the husband whom I am divorcing ... it is the loneliness that is killing me. How do I survive this? Humans are social creatures and I am so lost and feel like I have no one and dont know where to turn. I honestly love the truth and I feel they were right in my being d/f'd, but I am having a REAL hard time adjusting to the what do I do with the time when I dont work, go to meetings, study, and clean house. There is no one here ... there are interested co-workers, now that word got out I left him, but I know I am not suppose to see anyone ... and if and when I get back in, who would want me anyway? I cheated .. I was desperate to get out of the abuse and did what I felt (at that time)what I thought I had to do (bad thinking on my part). I long for companionship as I NEVER had it in the marriage ... such a disaster ... I do not want to go back into a depression but am not sure what to do now? Any suggestions?