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Sparkplug
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People who never cry....
by JH in.
does this mean that they have less feelings, or that they were taught not to show their feelings, or they don't have any?
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what songs do you want played at your funeral?
by candidlynuts inyeah its morbid... but since we're not gonna live forever like we thought we might the first half or so of our lives, we're obviously gonna die someday.. and i dont want " keep your eyes on the prize " played at my funeral.. (keeping in mind that theres no one thats gonna claim my body to bury it anyway when the time comes).
i want " if you could read my mind" by gordon lightfoot.
" carry on my wayward son" by (kansas?
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Sparkplug
I have to say it: I don't like this thread because I once had a friend who told me that if he ever died he would like to hear this particular song played at his funeral. Then he killed himself.
Not that I think it should be removed, or that it is a bad thread. It just made me really afraid for the lead poster.
I was too young to see it when that happened and now, small things make me worry. So I guess I have a lot of you to worry about now.
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Revelation of self
by Sparkplug ini noticed via a friend with no reserve that i have come across harshly to some women.
not as harsh as it would be noticeable to someone on an internet board who does not know me could notice, but....to those who know me outside of the board, i have spoken as sharply as i can get at times.
i want to take this post to apologize.
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Sparkplug
I noticed via a friend with no reserve that I have come across harshly to some women. Not as harsh as it would be noticeable to someone on an internet board who does not know me could notice, BUT....to those who know me outside of the board, I have spoken as sharply as I can get at times.
I want to take this post to apologize. I just flat have a hard time with personalities such as mine has been, or still is in ways. There are so many things I have changed in myself that I did not like that when I see these things in peoples post, I don't buy it. I really do not like it. There are warning signs that I think they may be missing, or ethical issues I think may be being crossed in ever so subtle ways, or things I think are blatant lies to ones self. None of it is a proven fact, just me and my way I see the world. So If I have ever been a shit to you, I should not have because my reasons were strictly based on my knowing my own experience and other women (who are not you all here on the board) as individuals. That still does not make an egg a particular chicken.
So I am going to try to take more as face value and let each make their own mistakes or not. Seeing I cannot see your faces, feel the stress in your voice and do not know your style of humor, I need to take a breath of air and let people be. We all know things come out way different when typing and not having all the senses come out at once... Well that hinders our chance to really know each other.
I hope I get a chance to meet all of you and actually get the whole effect.
I f you missed that I was a snot at times, well that is good. I do tend to think if you knew I was being a beeeaatch that perhaps we are of more like mind than either one of us wants to admit. Remember that saying..Takes one to know one? Perhaps the recognition means you are capeable of what I think. Boy do I know this crazy lady that dwells within what I call a body well.
I really suck at apologies. Did this one come across as one? I meant it as one. Look I am sincere.....
Really I love the idea of a sisterhood of women! I can be the biggest fan of women sticking together. And that means accepting ones who don't mind possessing the traits I despise because I once possessed them.
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People who never cry....
by JH in.
does this mean that they have less feelings, or that they were taught not to show their feelings, or they don't have any?
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Sparkplug
I see that I went on a trip there and this is about not being able to cry. I guess I could have summed it up, but never as well as Frannie in that usually people who dont cry have the biggest hearts. The tears stop because maybe they have been hurt one too many times. Self defense I suppose.
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People who never cry....
by JH in.
does this mean that they have less feelings, or that they were taught not to show their feelings, or they don't have any?
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Sparkplug
Dont be mistaken by my cry. It is usually because I am so damn mad that I can not contain it. If I cry out of emotional hurt, then it is really bad hurt. And I most likely will be mixing it with sheer anger. I try to let people know very calmly when I am about to reach that point, or give them a heads up on what actually will make me that mad, or hurt me that badly.
But once the tears start falling, it is usually because I have reached my absolute limit and have have to deal with some harsh realities I wish were not so. For example I get very angry at myself for giving people better hearts than they actually have. I tend to lend my motives to other people and when I found I have done this once again...............................I get so damn mad, that well the tears start falling. I tend to stutter then too.
Strange it never stops me fully from trying with people because most people even if they seem shitty, have this wonderful person in them that they just do not know how to let it out. I have found that the odds are pretty good that my first guess was good and that I am not making them into myself all the time (in my mind and my perception). Often the anger is the hurt I am put thru while I am patient with ones that just need time to learn a better way. It usually is worth it when the "children" grow up and realize the behavior they do really is a bad thing.
I love it when the light goes on, and they pass that 2nd stage of adolescent developement. Lately though I find I am loosing my patience and sometimes the juice is not worth the squeeze to me. I think I am tired on waiting on adults to mature. Maybe I should look for more whole friends in the first place? I think though that would make me a lonely old fart because really who of us is completely balanced?
Sorry if I ran with this post....
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School Shopping
by Sparkplug ini hate it!
i went and did shopping tonight for two of the three kiddos and it was so bad that i could not get into the aisles with a cart.
so i set it aside and squeezed thru the way and found ...er, fought for what i needed.
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Sparkplug
I never thought of it either, but when I went back to a corner store to get the few missing items and payed a million bucks, the man behind the counter said, "people are so smart."
Made me upset that they were smart at my expense.
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School Shopping
by Sparkplug ini hate it!
i went and did shopping tonight for two of the three kiddos and it was so bad that i could not get into the aisles with a cart.
so i set it aside and squeezed thru the way and found ...er, fought for what i needed.
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Sparkplug
I hate it! I went and did shopping tonight for two of the three kiddos and it was so bad that I could not get into the aisles with a cart. So I set it aside and squeezed thru the way and found ...er, fought for what I needed. Every time I got back to the cart, someone had stolen my supplies.
Finally I get them all and get home, and still more were gone.
People really make me sick sometimes.
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The Badger has landed!
by Badger inha!
just to let everyone know.... i just relocated to denver, to be closer to the badger pup.
i'm wokring at a local high school (same job as before, new location.
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Sparkplug
Badger pm me your address so i can send the cd of Badger pup...great pics
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You don't have to read this... Feedback Wanted
by Sparkplug inwhen i die may i please have chocolate cake?.
chapter 1. my birth.
i have always thought of my life like that.
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Sparkplug
Sherrie and Annie!
I am so excited to get to post...I ran out of them yesterday. I did not really even know I could do that. Thank you for your words and the big hug. I really REALLY needed that. I have been having such a terrible day. Glad you like it. Hopefully I will get inspired. Trying to catch the groove again. II see a bunch of free time and focusing coming on in my direction. So maybe I will dicipline self and get busy.,
Nilnuf, sorry to totally mess up the laughter track. I guess I wrote it that way on purpose because, well a lot of things I laugh at are not so funny and hard to get thru without laughter and yet it hurts. So if written like that,maybe the reader will catch some of the confusion and mixed feelings....?
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BAD KITTY!
by Valis in.
goddamit!
sinnamon has been torturing and chasing around this mouse in the house for about an hour now...i can hear it shriek and squeak every once in a while...i can't catch it and the most irritating thing is she prolly brought it in as a present... this is the culprits mugshot btw...see any humility there?.
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Sparkplug
DAMN IT.. I am so sorry Traavis....why do my pictures post like this. I am so So sorry....