Hello:
I am a Jehovah's witness but, I don't quite share some of the views of the WTS.
First of all, we have to admit that God cannot die, nor fake his own death.
The Bible also states that Jesus was resurrected by God ( 2:24 Acts) This means while Jesus was dead, Jehovah was alive and he resurrected him. Other verses are Acts 13:32, acts2:32.
So, theres is no much to discuss about the issue, Jehovah and Jesus are separate persons, that at one time, one of them was alive and the other one dead.
Now, to understand the verses of the Bible that seem to identify Jesus as God, we have to remember this facts and admit that the Bible cannot teach two different doctirnes and both be true.
The Bible teaches that "Eternal Father" is an apropriate name for Jesus, so we have to find out why.
The Bible says that jesus is the beginning and the end, we have to find out why.
But every time remembering the clear truth that I pointed out above.
The fact is that Nicea in the 3rd century was the concile that established (not by unanimity) the doctrine of the trinity. The rest of what you say is true. Jesus himself did not established any religion. but though taought that the christians will be divided until he came back.
How do we recognize the true disciples of Jesus? He answered, Mat 7: 16
If Jesus would have wanted us to identify his people by doctrines, he would have given us a multiple choice questionaire with the correct answers checked. But he did not, he said that love would identify his true disciples and nod perfect doctrine.
My rothers witnesses spend hundreds o hours trying to proclaim the name of god and the good news of the kingdom of god. They think it is an effort that soon will end in Armagedon, it is not. The Bible predicts clearly that one day all the world will be full of Gods knowledge, that time has not yet come.
The only thing I cn tell you is what I personaly understand from my daily readings of the Bible.
I have also come to doubts about the identity of Jesus, but at the end I always go back to the specific and non interpretative truths of the verses ( an a lot more) that I mentined.
The Universe has no limits and no center, so how can be God contained?
I understand that in the far past, God created the Word. A creature identical to him but finite and subject to death. This acient creature's asignement was to create the rest of the things following the will of God. And to command the rest of the creatures that would be created by him Joh 17:5,24. If he talks, al the other creatures could assume that was god himself who was talking because this powerful creature does not do anything by its own, but only what he sees the father do or what the father commands Joh 5:19. If you have seen the Word, you have seen the Father, they are one, as the Bible states.
Through him, the father sends blessings to al his creatures, using his Holy Spirit, or the Spirit of the Truth, wich is another manifestation of God. When someone gets it, is God himself that is atcuating, because is the power of God.
So God uses two channels to interact with his creation, The Word, and the Holy Spirit. Thatis is why no men has seen god before, but the one that came from God, Jesus, the Word incaranate.
When Satans revelion arose an opportunity was presented to Jesus, to rescue mankind from its destiny, but most important with that, to prove himself loyal. How could a so powerful creature prove himself loyal. By coming to earth and dying the way Jesus died. God offered the Word the opportunity of having an eternal spirit ( Heb 9:14). Yes, if someone could prove himself loyal to God to the point of death and extreme suffering he would grant inmortality. That was the motivation of Jesus to come and die, and of course his love for mankind.
Isn't Jesus the beginning of everything, yes. And after his resurrection to an inmortal life he is also the end. That was the will of God.
No other creature has been granted such holliness andso many priviledges. To the point that God allows us to proskineo to him andto worship God bending our knees in the name of Jesus, because Jesus died for the Glory of God the Father.
It is understandable that many true christians are not able to understand the nature of God and the Word and the Holy Ghost, because they are really manifestations of the same deity.
I hope this helps you in your search for the truth.
P.L.