I have a friend ,who is also studying to be a JW, who has feelings for me. We are both in highschool, she thinks about us being a couple, though she feels she is not ready for a relationship and does not want to be in one. We were bestfriends once, and I had feelings for her, but i agreed to stop having feelings for her by ignoring my feelings because they made her uncomfortable. We use to play around and wrestle, but because of other friends and people saying that we seem like a couple , she thought it best that we dont and I not have feelings for her and that we should not see or talk to each other as much so that i would lose my feelings for her and that she gets space because i would walk her to her classes and meet with her after school and talk with her often. So for a while we didnt see each other and i felt hurt, but later we worked things out, we could only be friends, not best friends, not talk to each other as much, not walk her or wait for her after classes. The reason she wanted this was so i would not have feelings for her and so she wouldnt think of me as her boyfriend, because often she said it seemed like we were a couple. So today she said that she had thoughts about us as a couple, and also had sexual thoughs about us. She felt really bad and because she feels that it is wrong to think of me as her boyfriend or have feelings for me, and because of the sexual thought. She was thinking that she should put more space between us cause she feels that having feelings for me and wanting us to be a couple is wrong.Yet i still have feelings for her, but choose not to feel them cause i agreed not to so that she wouldnt feel uncomfortable in our friendship. So is it wrong to have feelings (not sexual ones) for another and to want to be a couple? Is it wrong to be friends while having feelings for each other? Because of one thought, should a friend ship grow apart or end? What advice can you give on the subject of dating and our beliefs on it as Jehovahs Witnesses? If you ask for forgiveness for having a sexual thought, should you go on making yourself feel bad about it and beat yourself up about it? Could you please give me some Bible passages on the matter (Like refference to this in the Bible)? Could i please get opinions on this matter and possibly also get some advice and the opinion of an elder please? Any and all thoughts and opinions or anything would be very helpful
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