Posts by desbah

i've been a faded jw for 10 years i left because of my failed first marriage, i'm no hypocrite and realised i had left completely so i embraced the world and dived in, only christmas and birthdays i could not get into, they were too foreign to me having never celebrated them, like if i suddenly tried to do ramadan or something like that.. 1/ all the criticisms of the people in the truth you say on here, i've found in the world, warts and all only in the world nothing holds them back from being utterly horrible to you.. 2/ i got stabbed by a worldly boyfriend, i got married 2 times of my own choosing to men outside the truth, the first smoked and was an alcoholic, the second gambled every penny we had and defrauded me out of money after we separated, 2 divorces later i am currently pregnant and a single mum since current boyfriend decided kids was to much of a responsibility and he needed his freedom and i was 'too selfish to expect him to give up his life'.. 3/ parents-in-law!

i have been shunned by them as equal to anything you accuse witness families of and for the silliest of reasons, i had a disabled son and his grandparents said they wanted nothing to do with him because they didn't want to become attached in case he died.. 4/ i miss the honest friendships of the truth, i had friends of all ages from 14 to 80 years old and they genuinely cared for me, many trying to keep me in the faith a long time after i left but i was determined to fade so moved away completely, but i find friendships in the world so shallow in comparison and very hard to sustain :( i've never been a drinker and sometimes thats what friendship means you being a companion for them to goto pub with.. 5/ my recent boyfriend was in a christian religion, i thought why not find out about it, harvest churches if you ever heard of them, unfortunately it still hasn't stop him leaving me pregnant and alone and when i said to him how does he clear that with god, he replies "as long as i repent it doesn't matter" it's like he has a "get out of jail free card" for any wrong-doing in the bible, this is so alien to me and my witness trained conscience.. 6/ i recently out of frustration tried looking into atheism and joined their forums, it wasn't fun, they are as bombastic and arrogant as their religious counterparts can be from any religion, they make a religion out of not believing in god, it's very weird they talk of saving people from believing in god and offer nothing to replace it.

they said to me "be happy you are in reality now and enjoy it" and i thought "well if this is reality i've had enough of it".

desbah

I am going to the memorial (birth allowing) to get a balanced view of both sides

make-up your mind woman!

just remember Memorial is one of the "special" day where all JW's attend. even when they are half-dead or just about to give birth. Your thread, "Thinking of becoming a Winess again and my reasons for doing so :( " should start at attending this year Memorial.

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I got my voter registration card today

by B_Deserter in

my jw brother brought it in.

god i hope he didn't look at it!

i was hoping it'd come in a discreet envelope, but no, it had to be marked all over the place.

desbah

good for you, every vote counts

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Thinking of becoming a Witness again and my reasons for doing so :(

by reniaa in

i've been a faded jw for 10 years i left because of my failed first marriage, i'm no hypocrite and realised i had left completely so i embraced the world and dived in, only christmas and birthdays i could not get into, they were too foreign to me having never celebrated them, like if i suddenly tried to do ramadan or something like that.. 1/ all the criticisms of the people in the truth you say on here, i've found in the world, warts and all only in the world nothing holds them back from being utterly horrible to you.. 2/ i got stabbed by a worldly boyfriend, i got married 2 times of my own choosing to men outside the truth, the first smoked and was an alcoholic, the second gambled every penny we had and defrauded me out of money after we separated, 2 divorces later i am currently pregnant and a single mum since current boyfriend decided kids was to much of a responsibility and he needed his freedom and i was 'too selfish to expect him to give up his life'.. 3/ parents-in-law!

i have been shunned by them as equal to anything you accuse witness families of and for the silliest of reasons, i had a disabled son and his grandparents said they wanted nothing to do with him because they didn't want to become attached in case he died.. 4/ i miss the honest friendships of the truth, i had friends of all ages from 14 to 80 years old and they genuinely cared for me, many trying to keep me in the faith a long time after i left but i was determined to fade so moved away completely, but i find friendships in the world so shallow in comparison and very hard to sustain :( i've never been a drinker and sometimes thats what friendship means you being a companion for them to goto pub with.. 5/ my recent boyfriend was in a christian religion, i thought why not find out about it, harvest churches if you ever heard of them, unfortunately it still hasn't stop him leaving me pregnant and alone and when i said to him how does he clear that with god, he replies "as long as i repent it doesn't matter" it's like he has a "get out of jail free card" for any wrong-doing in the bible, this is so alien to me and my witness trained conscience.. 6/ i recently out of frustration tried looking into atheism and joined their forums, it wasn't fun, they are as bombastic and arrogant as their religious counterparts can be from any religion, they make a religion out of not believing in god, it's very weird they talk of saving people from believing in god and offer nothing to replace it.

they said to me "be happy you are in reality now and enjoy it" and i thought "well if this is reality i've had enough of it".

desbah

for someone who likes to post on their own thread, I think your beyond reason. March 22nd will be here soon start a new thread on your experience at the JW Memorial.

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My JW uncle died -- going to visitation.

by reneeisorym in

i was a 5th generation jw so i have my whole entire family in this borg.. my uncle died yesterday.

he was the one that owned the antebellum home i grew up in (built in 1837).

his son was a very dear friend of mine because we were close to the same age.

desbah

renee,

sorry for your loss, sounds like you handle your uncle's visitation well. you are very courageous, by showing up to pay your respects to your late uncle it's worth more than words.

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My neice died this morning

by MsMcDucket in

my neice who had cancer died at 3:00 a.m. my sister just called and told me.

i'll put up the obituiaries when it's posted.

no need for responses.

desbah

My deepest sympathy to your sister and you. It must be very hard to lose someone so young to cancer. My prayers are with you and your family.

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YouTube Videos That Move You

by RAYZORBLADE in

we've all got songs .

i'm not so much a movie/film affeciando, but i know many are.. music is more my forte.. i've been delving back deep into music i once used to listen to not only as a little boy, but also the time while a jw (1977-1984); post-jw and of course, years leading up closer to where i am now.. any recommendations?.

i noticed on some threads, that some youtube videos started right away; i liked that.

desbah

Star Trek meets the White Rabbit

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUA35XQxxw8

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Drinks with my father last night...

by bluesbreaker59 in

ok, so i've been df'd for almost a year now, and out of the blue my dad asked me to go out for drinks with him.

this is big because he's an elder in my former hall.

he's only seen me once in the year i've been out, at my (step)grandfather's funeral (his father in law).

desbah

bluesbreaker

I found your post interesting where you prayed about meetin your father.

I was nervous all day, and had been praying about it. When I got there a strange calm came over me, like nothing was wrong at all.

I'm glad you have a good relationship with your father and he must love you a lot. Please continue to keep in contact with your father because life is precious and too short to let religion come between you and him.

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My JW mother passed away

by desbah in

so much has happen over the pass years since i posted on this forum.

three years ago i posted my first topic about my mother, she passed away recently.

it still hurts to lose a mother, someone who gave you birth and raised you the best she could.

desbah

This forum is really a road to recovery to me and once again I would like to express my gratiude to everyone who posted. Thank-you.

AK-Jeff

I had an entire congregation boycott my mom's funeral, though she believed until her last breath that it was the Truth

I know exactly how that feels. We tried to included the JW's to speak at the burial site and invited her JW "friends" to attend her funeral but nobody came.