I was terribly depressed from a very young age. I had an eating disorder starting about age 8 and by the time I was about 14 I just wanted to die.
I had several suicide attempts, was hospitalized for the eating disorder and no one could help me. As soon as I was disfellowshipped everything turned around.
Can't say the drinking and drugs were the best trade off for an eating disorder and suicide, but at least I'm still alive.
When I got reinstated, life just went from good to almost very very bad again. After DAing life went pretty good again. ( I did get counceling). I do believe that being a witness would in the end kill me. Perhaps its just an allergy!!
Moanzy