For me though, even as I went through some years just like them, plodding along with the program, when I finally started reaching out, exerting myself to do what I thought was necessary to be faithful, that's when it started to unravel. It was when I actually took it serious and tried to separate myself from the pretenders that I saw through it. It didn't stand up to the test.
Undercover, this is an important comment. Almost exactly what happened to me, and many, many others, I suspect.