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I had a roommate last year who was a former bandmate and who was separating from his wife. He had stayed overnight a few times prior when there was trouble at the henhouse; I would never turn away anyone who was in a spot. To make a long story short, she trashed me and lied about stuff to our mutual friends, some of it very damaging. I had done nothing to her directly. I stood my ground and told her that I would see her in court if she didn't stop. I understand that I put myself in the position and that emotions were running wild there but it was very spiteful and vindictive. Those who knew me, knew what was happening and stood up for me. Those who didn't and took her side, well, too bad. I cut my losses with that crowd. Too bad some people don't care to hear both sides of a story. You have to protect yourself.

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Disposable People

by MerryMagdalene in

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since my mom decided she needed to put full shunning back into effect again (an unconscious new year's resolution to be a better jw?

), i've been ransacked by a whole bunch of emotions which have been gradually resolving into thoughts.

the sense of being completely disposable, expendable, replaceable.

Twitch

(((p717)))

If you're still vying for the approval of someone who's clearly rejected you, then it's time to reinvent yourself and your life situation, move on and let all of it go.

Yea, that's where it starts. I recall the looking for approval thing operating in the background for a long time after leaving. Hard to untie knots tied as a dub kid. Learned the hard way.

About 5 years after I was DA, I ran into one of the elders who was on my tribunal and was the father of my best dub friend growing up. In the back of my heart, I recall some measure of hoping he would be genuinely friendly and that despite the choice made, he would respect the time and friendship I had with him and his son. He said, "How does it feel to break your parent's hearts?" I was shocked and speechless. Being in a nebulous state at the time, that statement convinced me that what I was doing was right despite the effect on my family, and that I didn't need anyone's approval for anything I wanted to do. F*** em. The anger at it all motivated me for a long time and I accomplished much with it but at a high price of course. You eventually hit the wall. Now I would just smile and walk away. Nice post BTW. Thank you

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