Beautiful poem.
Thanks for the share.
continued from part one: .
the envelope was thick and so i knew that it had to contain pictures.
when i opened it, faded snapshots .
Beautiful poem.
Thanks for the share.
i have 2 jw's coming every freaking saturday to my auto repair shop (going on for about 9 weeks now) trying to get me to come back into the organization.
any suggestions on how to let them down easily?
a lot of them are my customers.
Welcome
just starting is the main thing.
ive been lurking for a while now.
i've been about 8 years outta 'the truth'.
does anyone out there have trouble showing their emotions?
Welcome,
I couldn't force a tear for anything or anyone for about 10 years.
Then one day a couple years ago, it all came out and I couldn't stop it.
I decided at that moment to find out why. Shortly thereafter, I met Lee.
And began to slay some dragons spawned from the depths of growing up dub
ever since we moved into this place almost eight years ago, there have been demons in my basement.
no, not those kinds of demons.
not the smurf-controlling, videogame-inhabiting and musically-backmasked, legendarily-jw-feared sort of demons.
I have come to the conclusion that I overstuffed my house, my life, my soul with things in the past near-decade to try to bury, forget, avoid, and ignore these things.
Sounds familiar, though with different things
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that is, if you are able to without the prospect of facing a three-man kangaroo court appointed by jerhover to keep the congregation clean from apostate influences.. i'll go first: .
i am rather new here, so i may be repeating a worn out subject.
however, for me it is rather a new experience, since i have only just recently stopped going to the kh.
my heart has never really been in it, though i am not in total disagreement and have made some nice friends in "the truth".
CL
Welcome. I've debated with my dub parents for 20 years trying to get them to see some semblance of reality to no avail. They still preach to me and toe the dub line. I despised the org and by them by association, unconsciously with the result being a personal meltdown and realization that i had to change, not them. Now I just leave them to their beliefs and try to maintain what relationship there still is.
And you're right, it does get easier. I doubt it goes away completely but you learn to cope and live with it. Like anything.
i once attended a seminar on sleep that was focused on the effects of shift work and how the constantly changing wake/sleep cycles can affect health and well being.
i forget the name of this particular sleep researcher as it was a few years ago and i attend many seminars as a av technician.
but what i learned was very informative and i'll take the opp to share what i remember.
I once attended a seminar on sleep that was focused on the effects of shift work and how the constantly changing wake/sleep cycles can affect health and well being. I forget the name of this particular sleep researcher as it was a few years ago and I attend many seminars as a AV technician. But what I learned was very informative and I'll take the opp to share what I remember.
Sleep has four stages, with the body going through all four states in approx 90 minutes. A normal night's sleep consists of going through these four stages a number of times. An interesting fact is that naturally, the body will consider a good night's sleep a multiple of this time frame, approximately of course. Thus you may feel as refreshed with 6 hours of sleep as with 7.5 hours. If you awake in the midst of a cycle, chances are you'll feel tired and grumpy with it taking longer to "get going".
Stage 1 is when you're just drifting off and look asleep but are aware of your surroundings to some degree. If the TV is on at this stage and someone turns it off, you'll likely awake. Lucid dreaming most often occurs here (more on that later). Stages 2 & 3 are successively deeper states where the brain begins it's chemical and psychological "housecleaning", signalling changes in various glands and itself that it's time to rest and recuperate. The digestive tract is shut down, heart rate and breathing change, etc. The most important change happens in the brain in stage 3, the "deep" sleep, where it's activity and functioning change drastically in order to "clean" up various chemical buildups that happen throughout the day and to regenerate critcal cells. This stage is most important in maintaining a healthy "brain", for lack of a better description and is usually shortened or even missed if regular sleep cycles are interrupted. Stage 4 is REM sleep which is when dreams occur and is a relatively short stage in the cycle. After REM sleep, the cycle starts over again, with the body reverting to the more "semi-conscious" stage 1, often coinciding with waking up momentarily or realizing you need to hit the washroom.
Normally, our bodies develop a biological operating pattern throughout each day, the circadian rhythm, which is primarily influenced by exposure to light but also influenced by other factors such as digestion (don't eat before bedtime as example). This is a product of evolution that all animals have due to the natural state of day/night. Certain biological processes and hormonal levels rise and fall over the course of the day, one being the "proper" time to sleep, another being the peak of mental alertness ("morning/evening person"). If said patterns are constantly being interrupted and changed, the result is a confused body constantly readjusting it's biological "clock" and processes. Jet lag is an example of what the body goes through in the short term. Shift work is very hard on the body, as anyone in the biz knows and it takes time for the body to adjust properly. "Deep" sleep often suffers and the result is too apparent.
Some of the tips offered by this researcher to induce sleep were;
Of course, all this is a layman's viewpoint on the subject. I would welcome any further info on the topic.
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i must still be programmed to think like a jw, cause i like to read articles about how bad things are going in the world.
the worse the world conditions become, the more i love to read.
I was a reading a guitar chord book trying to figure out how a complicated chord is played..and I still don't know
Being a bass player and not well versed in theory, it's a bit of a mystery to myself as well. But I can hack out basic chords on guitar and have found barre chords to be a next step in expanding the mental chord "dictionary". Essentially it's taking the basic open chord patterns and scaling it up the neck using the index finger as a virtual "nut" defining the fundamental or root note. Beyond that it gets a little complex,....
Have fun
just saying hi, and i am soooooo glad to find this site.
i have been out of the org.
for about 7 years now, and am just now feeling fully free.
Welcome
when i got off for lunch today i decided to go to the walmart deli and get something to eat.
it is a huge store, groceries, a bakery, mc donalds, a bank , eye center, beauty shop, a great deli, and a huge garden center.
i had taken back a 80 gig hard drive dvd recorder ( i couldn't figure out how to hook up <smile> and had received 238.00. i picked up a couple of things in the store then went to the deli.
You too Annie.
Peace