This is a very hard situation. I was there at your age and decided to move away from home at that point. Yes, it has a lot to do with the JW's but it is also very common growth situation. Even though you are in college, you need to move away. You feel the tug and pull of the seperation process as does your mom. It's very natural but made more difficult by the witness stuff.
Keep moving towards independence... it will get better.
Eva
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15I thought today was a good day....
by collegegirl21 inso i wake up feeling alright, i have to unbraid my hair (which will take well into the night time) and so i come downstairs, turn on the computer and chat and unbraid my hair, thinking, this is a good day.
low and behold my mother comes down... "sh*****, i need the computer.
" "ok, mom..." i put an away message on my aim and then when she sits down, "i don't want you talking on that thing, jehovah wouldn't like that.
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Diet fail factors
by greendawn inwhen you are on a diet what is it that tempts you most to give it up or if you succeed in your diet objectives what is it afterwards that tempts you to overeat and start putting on weight again?
unfortunately most dieters that lost weight regain it.
long term successful weight loss is elusive for most people.
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I have lost and regained dozens of pounds. I am a great dieter, very diligent and organized. But when I stop dieting, I go into some kind of semi-conscious state of denial. I don't pay attention to what I eat, I don't weigh myself or read anything about diets. I cook and bake alot. Then I wake up! And I am startled to realize I have gained back alot of weight rather quickly.
So the trick for me is to stay always conscious about my eating. Keeping a food journal definitely helps. I check in with a diet buddy every day and weigh in once a week. If I blow it, I try to make it a deliberate cheat rather than a zombie binge.
I eat really well, and will splurge on expensive raspberries and dark chocolate to help with the feelings of deprivation.
All these things help me to feel satiated, in control, and I am steadily losing the pounds.
Good luck to all in your weight loss journey!
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Good Friend is dying
by pratt1 inmy mom just called to tell me that a good friend of mine when i was in the "lie" is dying of colon cancer.. he asked my mom to talk to me about going to see him in the hospital before he goes into hospice.
even though i have been faded for over 10 years, when my mom spoke to me i could only remember the good times we had as friends when we were kids, so it was a no brainer for me, i am going to see him this afternoon.
i also asked my mom to get the phone number of another childhood friend who grew up with us that is dfed.
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So sorry to hear of your friend's illness. He's lucky to have you for a friend. I'm sure seeing you before he dies will mean so much to him.
Thinking of you,
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Disfellowshipped and lonely
by ryry ini was disfellowshipped in 2003. systematically my family stopped talking to me.
i am only 22 years old and i feel a big void in my life.
what can i do to feel better?
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I have nothing to add to the great advice given except keep on posting and reading on this board. It has helped tremendously and given me some perspective on my own situation. Also, to know that there are others out there who understand is a great relief.
Welcome!!
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Fried chicken & and slice of white bread
by MissBehave inanother thread today made me think of this....does it bring back memories for anyone else?
it was the staple food of every assembly i remember.
they made them in the morning and by lunch time the bread had absorbed all the grease from the chicken.
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Hey Willyloman
I was at that assembly! I was about 16 and helping out at the watermelon stand. It was so hot and tiring that I would go back to my seat and sleep the rest of the afternoon. My mom let me do this because I was a "volunteer".
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ORANGEFATCAT HAS A BRAIN TUMOR
by orangefatcat inyes, it is so, that i have a brain tumor and i will be going to the hospital in about two hours.
i will ask my son richard to keep all of you posted.
i have all of you in my heart.
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Oh no! You are my favorite orange fat cat. I hope you get better soon.
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What are your most hated JW words and phrases?
by Low-Key Lysmith inmine are, in no particular order:.
"the friends".
"glean".
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unevenly yoked
meek, humble, lowly ones
weak in the truth
give a "talk"
householder
wait on jehovah
apostate
she's not "theocratic"
fornication
unclean
submission
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Do you feel old?
by MsMcDucket innow, that i'm in my forties...heading toward fifty, fast; i feel old.
i feel like i've wasted a good part of my life with religious hang-ups!
i think that i would have done a lot of things differently had i not been raised the way i was.
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Hi MsMcDucket
So sorry that your children are too indoctrinated to see what a great mom they have. I hope they come around soon!
As far as seeing a psychologist, I have for over 12 years. It really can help to have someone to talk to on a regular basis. During very bleak times in my life it was a relief to see her each week. Even though I pay for it, I believe she cares about what happens to me and I appreciate the therapeutic relationship. You might want to try it and see if you connect.
I sure can relate to all those young and old who feel "worn out". I'm trying to focus on some simple remedies like making sure I eat right, drink enough water, get some sun and exercise each day.
I'm so grateful to all of you on the board for your funny, honest, and thoughtful posts. I really look forward to coming here each night and catching up with everyone.
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Ever had to go to hospital?
by greendawn inin general have you been physically healthy in your life or did you ever have a serious physical illness to the point that you needed hospitalisation?
fortunately up to now i never had any such illness nor did ppl of my age that i know, except one (heart operation).
the only one that died actually got killed in an accident at work after the machine he was operating snatched him and minced him.
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Tonsils out at 11 - very painful. Could not eat ice cream as promised.
First pregnancy - C-section due to big ol' boy who wouldn't come out after 5 hours of pushing.
Gallbladder removal - had my first attack when son was 3 days old but waited till he was a year to have op.
Second pregnancy - Twins, C-section because baby A was head down but baby B was transverse breech. Also was hospitalized many times due to
premature labor at 29 weeks. Made it to 36 weeks before water broke.
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Do you feel old?
by MsMcDucket innow, that i'm in my forties...heading toward fifty, fast; i feel old.
i feel like i've wasted a good part of my life with religious hang-ups!
i think that i would have done a lot of things differently had i not been raised the way i was.
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Yes, I got out in my early 20's and am now 46. Much of my life has been spent trying to undo the impact of the JW's as well as some other issues from my early childhood. My kids are still kind of young and that keeps me feeling youthful. But since my JW mom died in Dec. of 2004, I am really feeling the age thing.
Eva