Hello. I haven't posted in a long time, over a year. Just wantedto say hi & sorry for your cruel parents. I am married to an awesome man whose parents abused him. Have you ever read a series of books, the first one called "The Child Called It"? Its a very inspiring story though hard to read at times. The man who wrote the series now travels the world doing public speaking against child abuse.
I used to get very upset at the meetings when people would beat toddlers babies & young children for not sitting still or being quiet during long, boring, meetings. I was disfellowshipped and went back for a short time when I had my kids. The attendants at the meetings were so rude to me because I didnt have a jw husband to strong arm my kids at the meetings. If my babies started cooing instead of scolding them, I would go to the back of the meeting and rock them. People were always trying to 'help' me by telling me to spank the kids & I just ignored them.
Anyway hope you find comfort & friends here