Hi Frog. I was baptised at 13, got disfellowshipped at 21, reinstated at 24, then slowly faded shortly after that. I am now 42--it has taken me years to feel at peace and know that they are a man-made cult. Personally I suffer from depression, which I did not realize that's what was part of my problem since I was a small child. So the JW thing of never being good enough really messed me up. I currently am on meds and doing much better and feeling more like a normal person.
I do want to share something that really helped me. About 8 years ago I started dabbling in different churches and different belief systems. I read a couple books by Catherine Ponder on Prosperity and for a while attended Christ Unity Church which is non-denominational. I don't feel that God uses a specific church, I feel God uses many methods for people to have a relationship with him and have their spiritual needs filled. I take everything with a grain of salt, and try not to take anything too seriously. Though I enjoy reading the Prosperity books--I don't take everything the author teaches seriously because it is a little over the top sometimes. But I really enjoy the scriptures she uses in the Bible that have a positive message for our well-being, and a lot of what the books teaches is that rather than being stuck in a 'fate' related existence--we have so much power to change our life and make it better. The book actually help me with my depression issues which were made worse by the JWs.
Anyway, didn't mean to ramble on, but it does take a while to really feel free from the bonds of the JWs. I am lucky because the only family member who is a JW is my sister. I do miss my best friend JW that I spent all my teenage years with, the other people were not really my friends. I have 3 children that I absolutely adore, and I am doing everything I can to keep them from ever being involved in a cult by teaching them what I went through. So my kids and my new husband are my world. You are still young and will hopefully one day have a family of your own, which will fill some of the void you are feeling now.