Wow Confession:
That really is paranoid. I had been out since about 1998 so sometimesI forget just how I was when I was in, however I didn't even think about reading C of C until around 2005.
First for me the generation change made me wonder then going to Randy's site and then here back in 2005 and finding out about the UN scandal. It just seems like a domino effect after that - you see one flaw and inconsistency right after another- The light of seeing the deception gets brighter!
I'm hoping that some of the writers consider having some of their books available in ebook or preferably kindle format and available on Amazon. You can hide the literature easier and it is readily more available.
LRG