Posts by Cordelia

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HI IM BACK AND MUCH NICER

by Cordelia in

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i took oon board what you all said, to be honest i was crying all time (not like me) and i turned to you guys for support but basically what everyone said that ineeded to sort myself ouf first was right ,, and i think maybe i have, i still single but everytime my parents keep on stick up for myself they know i dont believe it no more , i know its took me ages to come to this but its true im hurting them like hell but i thinki have to for me .

does anyone understand??

xxx.

Cordelia

Thanks guys,

i know i need to sort things out, i have come far tho my little girl was 6 the other day i sent her to school dressed like a fairy with a big badge on, with loads of pressies for the kids, she loved it, theres witnesses at the school and u know what i just didnt care,

also i have been on the radio doing a weird speed blind date thing, apparently all witnesses tuned in how sad is that, maybe they will finally realise i dont want it anymore,

anyway thanks for all your patience its great to vent sometime x

38

Hope everyone survived the big day!

by Hope4Others in

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now that memorial is past i hope that all is well for everyone mentally, physically, emotionally.

many were in a great turmoil as to feelings and what to do about.

going , so how are we all today?

Cordelia

my dad did it i survived actually i'd been asking so many questions about the wine he kind of had an apostate take on it which was great!!!

32

ok so who exactly is going to the memorial this year....and why?

by Cordelia in

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i am, my dad is doing it, i'm going to their hall theyve just moved there (to 'help' out).

i figured its the one meeting i can't miss as i upset them by not going to any others at all, also ive made a point of not going to my hall and i won't let anyone know i'm at my dads.

my dad is actually worried i might 'be apostate' about it, as i once said surely passing on the bread and wine is like saying 'no thanks jesus!

Cordelia

ha cognac i just replied to your post and asked if you were going!!

how come your husband is in it and you're not does it cause problems?? x

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Need quick list of things wrong with JW memorial service!!

by oompa in

my old elders, wife, and son know i have had issues with the servcie and talk for years.

i will start list:.

1. why would i even be there, if i have an earthly hope?.

Cordelia

wish thats all i had to be pissed about!!#

are you going cognac?

32

ok so who exactly is going to the memorial this year....and why?

by Cordelia in

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friends

i am, my dad is doing it, i'm going to their hall theyve just moved there (to 'help' out).

i figured its the one meeting i can't miss as i upset them by not going to any others at all, also ive made a point of not going to my hall and i won't let anyone know i'm at my dads.

my dad is actually worried i might 'be apostate' about it, as i once said surely passing on the bread and wine is like saying 'no thanks jesus!

Cordelia

i am, my dad is doing it, i'm going to their hall theyve just moved there (to 'help' out)

i figured its the one meeting i can't miss as i upset them by not going to any others at all, also ive made a point of not going to my hall and i won't let anyone know i'm at my dads. should help with my 'fade!!'

my dad is actually worried i might 'be apostate' about it, as i once said surely passing on the bread and wine is like saying 'no thanks jesus!'

might get my little girl to accidently spill it!!

anyway just wondered who else is going and why?

99

It is official. I am an elder now!

by outofthebox in

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friends

it happened last night guys.

i got early to the kh and the boe came to talk to me.

they ask me to read the bible and asked me a couple of questions.

Cordelia

I completely understand!! thats prob bad for you as i have been known to make bad decusions,

I thought that about the holy spirit i was drunk the night they reinstated me even had to go for a piss in the middle of it, i text sirona and talked 'apostate' then while waiting text lots of my freinds an anti witness message, coz once i got reinstated i thought they would think, how can the holy spirit be behind that!

but all my family said is sometimes they make mistakes!!

i really wish you well pm me if you want to talk, i really do understand, looking forward to inside info!!

17

HI IM BACK AND MUCH NICER

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i took oon board what you all said, to be honest i was crying all time (not like me) and i turned to you guys for support but basically what everyone said that ineeded to sort myself ouf first was right ,, and i think maybe i have, i still single but everytime my parents keep on stick up for myself they know i dont believe it no more , i know its took me ages to come to this but its true im hurting them like hell but i thinki have to for me .

does anyone understand??

xxx.

Cordelia

Go i was bit tipsy you know what scares me i cant remember writing that much!!!

anyway gonna sort things out soon, i've done well with not going meetings i've not been for 9 months, quite hard as my family just don't give up even today my dad emailed ,me at work the days text about a guy called mario who did drugs nearly got aids was in prison and is so blessed now he is reinstated!! apparently all it takes is going to jw meetings and reading their literture!!!

prob is why i drink and why feel so bad sometimes is.... my mum dad and sister are really ill, my sister (whos wedding i apparently ruined coz i was dfed) has to have a major heart op and docs have said she needs blood which she wont have i said how can i help she said go to meetings!!

sometimes i feel like i should just go back coz how will i feel if my lovely family do die! and i have hurt them so much, but i drink coz i not going to go back i have come so far, i just feel so bad sometimes!!

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Memorial Questions

by 4mylove in

seeing how it is inevitable that my husband will bring up attendance to this terrible event, what would be questions i could ask afterward on the very long drive home?

i'm pretty sure his parents have already started calling him to remind him to be sure to attend at least that since he is inactive at the time.

i know it's terrible but i'd love to play devil's advocate.

Cordelia

i started a thread once called no thanks jesus, it was something little toe had said, that jesus commanded his followers to drink of his 'blood' and eat of his 'body' surely when we pass the wine and bread and dont do that its like we're saying we don't want jesus and what he did for us!!

saying that i might go this year, not to my home cong tho im trying to fade but to another family bloody pressure and all that!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!

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APOSTASCOTLAND

by Dansk in

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would someone seriously consider arranging for an apostafest up in scotland next year?

i know i'm asking this early but i feel it would be good to put the feelers out now.. obviously, it would have to be a location easy to get to - so that means stornoway is out!

sorry, ross & xena.

Cordelia

i wanna come then is it stll on dependsa if sirona is going but love to go xxxx

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Did anyone ever "Really" stumble you ?

by Casper in

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this is one of the things i felt could get really petty in the congregation i attended, sometimes over the top, in my opinion.. one time a group of us sisters went on a shopping trip.

the driver was knocking herself out trying to find some "decent" music on the radio.

finally gave up and put a john mellencamp tape in.

Cordelia

yeah if youre a 'good jw' ur stumbled!!! m i went on a bethel trip to london and they had a tv so played little mermaid, my gran and others thought it shoyld be turned off coz of tyhat n0o unfornatuinate souils songs by the bloody sea witch n thought we belicved in souls just that they are dead no joke they wqere all offended i wads throwing up as it was fore motion sickness but that made me far worse and i was 10 !!!