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  can they df me again?

  by Cordelia in

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  him guys im back again!

  bit worried i havent been meetings at my hall for 10 months i went sometimes with my dad to his (to please him) tho he knows i dont want anything to do with the 'truth'.

  anyway i got bit drunk on weds and did something stupid and my brother (a very into it dub) caught me and reported me to the elders!

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  Cordelia

  thanks guys esp scully it was nice what you put,

  i have had another prob today the brother who it happened with is in my old hall (the one i got dfed from 4 years ago) my record cards are at another one thank god! but he has rung me and one elder (my dad said it should of been 2) went round on sundaY and has told him to come to a kmeeting atthe hall on weds (he isnt going to go said he may change it to friday) he is older than me and doesnt seem to care if he is dfed, but my elders still havent been in contact..

  if they deal with him does that mean my elders have to come and see me? and yes i do live in an area where they are round all the time but im just planning on never answering the door etc...

  something else puzzled me what u guys have said that if we are sorry they dont df you, but i know from my experience and others i know the 3 men decide if u are sorry or not and it doesnt matter what we say....
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  can they df me again?

  by Cordelia in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  him guys im back again!

  bit worried i havent been meetings at my hall for 10 months i went sometimes with my dad to his (to please him) tho he knows i dont want anything to do with the 'truth'.

  anyway i got bit drunk on weds and did something stupid and my brother (a very into it dub) caught me and reported me to the elders!

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  i wont i have told my family im not answering any doors or any phones... my ex hubby had left just 4 months when he took our little girl on hol with his girlfriend they couldnt contact him and just left it so thats what im hoping for but it doesnt change the fact that my poor dad is worried sick ill be dfed and i have hurt them again and all they can say is go back to meetings and everything will be alright... why cant they just understand i want nothing to do with the so called 'truth!'
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  can they df me again?

  by Cordelia in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  him guys im back again!

  bit worried i havent been meetings at my hall for 10 months i went sometimes with my dad to his (to please him) tho he knows i dont want anything to do with the 'truth'.

  anyway i got bit drunk on weds and did something stupid and my brother (a very into it dub) caught me and reported me to the elders!

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  thanks its my own fault and the thing i did invovled a brother which was very stupid of me!

  thing is my family know and are very ashamed but what made me laugh (well not laugh) was my mum has told me that even if im not a witness but i ever have a bf sleep with anyone swear etc she doesnt want anything to do with me anyway...basically i have to live like a witness even if im not one!!
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  can they df me again?

  by Cordelia in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  him guys im back again!

  bit worried i havent been meetings at my hall for 10 months i went sometimes with my dad to his (to please him) tho he knows i dont want anything to do with the 'truth'.

  anyway i got bit drunk on weds and did something stupid and my brother (a very into it dub) caught me and reported me to the elders!

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  Cordelia

  him guys im back again! bit worried i havent been meetings at my hall for 10 months i went sometimes with my dad to his (to please him) tho he knows i dont want anything to do with the 'truth'

  anyway i got bit drunk on weds and did something stupid and my brother (a very into it dub) caught me and reported me to the elders! now im just waiting to see if they will contact me, i told my dad i would tell them to go away if they came as i havent been for ages but he says i shouldnt say that as they may dissassiocte me,

  i know u may all say so what but anyone that knows me knows that i have been confused now for ages, and finally i thought i was in a good place where 3 men dont come round and decide if i lose my family again or not, my dad is sooo upset he knows ill never go back and he is hurt but im dealing with that but how the hell can i be threatened with dfing when im not even a witness?
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  Anyone been caught for drink driving?

  by Cordelia in

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  just wondered!.

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  in fact its tomorro and where i was caught is a small town with apperently much harsher rules the sol said prison is nan option there im really scared but it is true in my home town they are more lenient either way ill be banned tomorro so cant go in my car and will take me hours to get home!

  i know im feeling sorry for myself but my uncle was killed at 6 by a drunk driver so i should be more against it then many, i just turned to drink for so many years and had no plans of driving home, but in a way im glad ive been caught before i killed someone or myself, definately makes you think anyway wish me luctho i know i dont deserve it,

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  Anyone been caught for drink driving?

  by Cordelia in

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  just wondered!.

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  i drank wasnt going to go home but my friend needed me so i drove my other friend repoted me and i was stopped at lights in court on weds im scared
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  my brother said i cant ever meet his baby

  by Cordelia in

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  i started a thread about my dad finding me on facebook but the truth is my brother was on it ive just got a call from him saying i cant have anything to do with facebook or i can have nothing to do withj him or his baby!!!.

  i feel so upset ok i was on ex jw sites on there but even gettin rid of then was not enough he said i have to get rid of facebook forever or i cant see him or my nephew#.

  i dont know what to do.... my dad is in the middle and not well and old and so sad at the cofrontationtation i feel bad!!!

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  well what i did is got drunk told my brother where to go and my mum and dad that i wasnt going out with them

  they were so upset i made my facebook private but hew said its still not good enough that when i turned to the drink,

  later i fell downstairs ended up at hospital not able to walk and with a blackeye (not a good look for my new job) i know its my decision and i should of just stood up to them and still had the association we were going to have instead i have upset them more than ever SIGH

  one postive thing is they know im not going to change my veiws and they think i hate the witness and they are saying they accept that if i stop hurting them by drinking too much and being apostate!
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  elder snooping on facebook

  by Cordelia in

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  my dad rang me last night really upset coz he had decided to go on facebook under a fake name to see what some people were up to in his hall and while he was there he decided to type my name in and he did not loike what he saw ie low tops short skirts the ex jw groups im on and also the night out i went on last sat with our very own sirona (a known apostate who apperently 'ruined my faith' according to my family).

  anyway he's coming tonight to help me deactivate my account and i'm not going to he knows i dont want the 'truth' so why is he still trying to control me?.

  and also like i pionted out these people hes checking out will not be happy hes been snooping and he can't see it just thinks he is helping them?.

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  Cordelia

  i found out its my brother started a new thread im well annonyed please ring
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  my brother said i cant ever meet his baby

  by Cordelia in

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  i started a thread about my dad finding me on facebook but the truth is my brother was on it ive just got a call from him saying i cant have anything to do with facebook or i can have nothing to do withj him or his baby!!!.

  i feel so upset ok i was on ex jw sites on there but even gettin rid of then was not enough he said i have to get rid of facebook forever or i cant see him or my nephew#.

  i dont know what to do.... my dad is in the middle and not well and old and so sad at the cofrontationtation i feel bad!!!

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  thanks u r all right

  im going my dads later my brother has told him and my mum about my pics and the ex jw groups i really dont know what to do obviosly id choose my brother over face book but my piont is if i get rid of some pics and dont go on ex sites (god help me if they knew i was on this one!) then whats his prob i cant understand i may as well still be dfed

  spoke to my dad he says i cn set up my account again when im stronger todeal with things....

  but got to face my mum later who has actually been really good but will be upset at the sites i jioned

  the counselling idea is good but u know fulln well what jw would go to a 'worldly councillor' no way i feel like saying to my brother fine then u have no contact with my daughter his only neice unless he gets off freinds reunited i dont see the difference if i delete the 'bad stuff!' but dont know if i have in me to fight anymore you can never win with a brainwashed family!!
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  my brother said i cant ever meet his baby

  by Cordelia in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i started a thread about my dad finding me on facebook but the truth is my brother was on it ive just got a call from him saying i cant have anything to do with facebook or i can have nothing to do withj him or his baby!!!.

  i feel so upset ok i was on ex jw sites on there but even gettin rid of then was not enough he said i have to get rid of facebook forever or i cant see him or my nephew#.

  i dont know what to do.... my dad is in the middle and not well and old and so sad at the cofrontationtation i feel bad!!!

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  Cordelia

  i started a thread about my dad finding me on facebook but the truth is my brother was on it ive just got a call from him saying i cant have anything to do with facebook or i can have nothing to do withj him or his baby!!!

  i feel so upset ok i was on ex jw sites on there but even gettin rid of then was not enough he said i have to get rid of facebook forever or i cant see him or my nephew#

  i dont know what to do...

  my dad is in the middle and not well and old and so sad at the cofrontationtation i feel bad!!!!