i feel the need to express how i feel and felt about my life as a gay man.
i was brought up from birth as a jehovahs witness.
this has played a major part in my life and it has been a real struggle to get past.
Dearest Josh,
I never want to invade anyone's life or privacy by asking their story. I was so excited to read your story this morning. Although the tears just started coming.
The desperation, the hopelessness of a unloving God. These were our judgements, not God's! We are so much harder on ourselves than God is with us.
I am so happy to have met you online. Truly loving, compassionate man.
Have fun, life is what we make it, not how others want us to live.
Cathy
there are days in our lives that make you think maybe we're not in this alone.
a higher power....or just sheer, blind luck?
don't know...don't care...but if i had any sense i would be buying a lottery ticket.. now that y'all are thinking..."what is that crazy redhead up to now?
Arrowstar,
Just reading through past posts. This one is precious! The love the Universe (God) can be seen through this experience. A time when you felt so hopeless but wouldn't give up, you just kept going. You made choices out of love this day, not fear. You stepped up to the plate to put the application in not sure how things were going to turn out. Had you not taken the opportunity presented it would have soon passed.
The tire incident brought back some old memories. Yep, dad showing me how to change one. What I have found through life is that a flat tire can actually save your life. Maybe the reason all this happened was because God was telling you he is still with you. He was still holding your hand.
Congratulations!
Cathy
this one's for the girls.
this is for all you girls about twenty-five.
this ones for the girls.
Beautiful Song. Thank you for posting!
Cathy
i'm new to this, i've spent the past 2 years trying to pull my head out of the bs.
i've refused to live a double life - i have nothing to hide - apparently others think otherwise!
so i'm ignored - no problem, makes the bs easier to ignore.
Welcome to group lookin!
I'm going to give you a "g" for "introductions that arouse interest", but I want you to work on timing. Your post used up only 38 seconds of your alotted 5 minutes. When the givin theme is "things to bitch about in JWland", the Faithful and Discreet Slave have prepared a bountious feast of well-oiled dishes for bitching fodder.
great one six!
Cathy
wow, there is a lot of newbies lately, heck i've only been here 3-4 months, has the watchtower been having lots and lots of talks on apostate sites ???
why do you suppose there are so many new people joining in ???.
watchtower been advertising for this site ??
Yes on the back of the Watchtower! Every Sunday they annouce the sites to never click on for if you are caught you will be expelled!
Just teasing!
Cathy
i'm new to this web site.
i was 3rd generation witness, a member for over 40 yrs.i helped write information for the awake mag.
(for a brief while), i'm a certified grief counselor, counselor for addictions, co-taught workshops on addictions, communication, marriage & parenting, 12 step work.
Michele welcome to the board!
I have found through my study that religion was only used as a stepping stone to the light. Spirituality comes from within. Spirituality is a personal path that we all walk alone but with God.
Cathy
i was 28 when i got borganized....i wish i could remember the names of the sisters that studied with me....one of 'em's name is barbara, the other one was a pig...guess they're not that memorable....but the plano congregation had not been started when i first got baptised or it had *just* been started in 1973....my best sis friend was carolyn nelson, a six feet tall sis with two kids, harris and april....i was really dumb and married the first elder that asked me....it was a total flop of a marriage, his teenaged son caused all sorts of problems for us.....i "ran away" from it and went back to the "world" for a while....i suppose because they hadn't gotten the "worldliness" out of me very well at the time....when i returned, they publicly reproved me and we divorced....his name was bob repp....he was an elder in the white rock congregation....i can remember a few names...the farmers, steve scott and his lovely red-headed wife, but that's all i remember..... .
then i moved back down here with my older two children, where i was raised and later went back into the borganization....i moved to california in late 1988, got in an auto accident in late 1989, and everything went downhill from there, borganization-wise...i had seen so much cruelty from the platform....even a p.o.
who graphically and sneeringly described explicitly...the sights, sounds and smells of alleged sexual acts between two pioneers, as he disf'd the pioneer sister, while she sobbed her heart out in front of the congregation and only reproved the pioneer bro.....made me wanna hurl....the elders treated me like a meadow muffin the whole time i was in cal.
Hi Frannie,
Loved your story here. Laughing so hard. You got the wankers so upset they couldnt figure out how to get their head out of their ass.
Question: What is a meadow muffin?
Question: Does Texas have something in the drinking water? You all know each other so well. Most posts seem to be from Texans!
Cathy
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yup...just got here and already jumped in for a few posts....hope yall're all okay...my life's been a little sucky lately, but things are perkin' up....getting the detritus out of my life and takin' a new path where work is concerned....is everyone here an active jw or what?.
frannie b
Welcome to the Board Frannie!
I was born into the jws. Left in 89, tried to go back for a decade. In 2000 it was a point of no return.
I am of the "or what" class.
Have a great time here. Lots of wonderful people.
Cathy
well, i talk about my abuse so much i haven't found the need to post it.
i guess i will post it now so i can write it once and not have to keep writing it over and over again.
well, my eariliest memory is of being punished.
Jesika,
This story was intense and so horrible. I am glad you wrote it. There is a healing all on it's own when we write our experiences.
The things your parents put you through is terrifying. You are their child, flesh and blood and yet they treated you with no love. The trauma you had gone through was only compounded by the abuse you suffered by your parents.
A place and time so divine will be your rest when all is done. How far you have come through this life! In spite of your parents and the religion you made it!
You have so much to be proud of! No matter where life leads you now, you know the difference between love and hate on a personal scale.
Wishing you all the love this world has to offer for today and the coming years.
A real man to beat a young woman your age, heck any age is nothing but a coward. For your mom to watch then participate is even more dispicable. I would have taken a bat to my ex had he done that, love or no love. What the hell were they thinking?
Cathy
i'm new here and just wanted to say hello to everyone.. i walked away a few years ago, i just couldn't believe the new light on the generation they are forcing on .
teaching people.
i also got burned - out on all the gossip and the other social garbage.
Welcome to the board Prudence!
Cathy
