Hahahahaha -- I like your reference about "while I was sleeping" and not "contemplating suicide the entire time."
Those talks don't sound like the cult's normal -- are you sure they're not trying to sneak in some lines to look appealing or like a normal, mainstream, safe, religion. No, that wouldn't be possible. Maybe the cancellation of a few big venues has them concerned - nothing seems to work or help them nor do they care to be user friendly.